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How does a person go from being completly unable to listen to the most important things, to... well, being able to?
Anybody? I've aparently got this hella big mental block that's completly fucking over every aspect of my life. There was a half joking line here about demanding solutions, but I wouldnt listen to it anyways, would I? Which means I need to come up with some way to beat this myself. Only thing is, I'm always so damned convinced I'm right, and that things need to be solved right the hell now, I refuse to be told 'leave it be', because that means you're encouraging the current state.
There, thats the issue. "Leaving something be encourages it's current state." Always fun when you figure these things out. Now intelectualy, I can look at that statement and know it's not true, but whenenver push comes to shove, I want to change states, make them better... More fitting my view, usually.
*sigh* Thorny little bitch of a problem, this. I've got to break it, though. My foolishness is damn near killing Jenna, and our relationship. And with damn good reason, too.
So. Knowing that... now what? Got nothing. Now I'll sleep on it.
Anybody? I've aparently got this hella big mental block that's completly fucking over every aspect of my life. There was a half joking line here about demanding solutions, but I wouldnt listen to it anyways, would I? Which means I need to come up with some way to beat this myself. Only thing is, I'm always so damned convinced I'm right, and that things need to be solved right the hell now, I refuse to be told 'leave it be', because that means you're encouraging the current state.
There, thats the issue. "Leaving something be encourages it's current state." Always fun when you figure these things out. Now intelectualy, I can look at that statement and know it's not true, but whenenver push comes to shove, I want to change states, make them better... More fitting my view, usually.
*sigh* Thorny little bitch of a problem, this. I've got to break it, though. My foolishness is damn near killing Jenna, and our relationship. And with damn good reason, too.
So. Knowing that... now what? Got nothing. Now I'll sleep on it.