"I'm Madly in Anger with You" ~Metallica~
Ok, so its September 11th 2003 which is not only the day we Americans remember the terrorist attack but Eric and Bianca's 2 year anniversary. The only thing is we haven't talked all day. And Im a little bit more than upset. He doesn't have a phone so he has to use his room mates and last night we had established that we were going to talk tonight at 10:30 so I called and the phone is shut off. I know I shouldn't worry about him cheating on me but its strange because my dream last night consisted of him telling me that it would be best if we saw other people. Now, I don't know if I should take that as my insecurities becoming such an obsession they are showing up in my dreams or if I should take that as a sign. I wish he didn't live in Philadelphia and the sooner he moves to Rochester the better. School is going quite well. I'm doing great in all my classes and I love them all except for Social Problems because my teacher is a boring monontonous bastard. I AM IN SUCH A BAD MOOD!! I HAVE TO STOP THINKING ABOUT ERIC! please dont think im a loser with nothing better to do than to sit by the phone waiting for my boyfriend or anything. It's just that even when Im out with my friends having a good time I STILL CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM! what should I do? WHAT SHOULD I DO?!??! someone help me.. I NEED ADVICE! ok ok changing the subject again. Next weekend Im going to GENESEO to see my best friend LEAH and shes taking me out for a manicure and dinner for my birthday..best present ever... and we're going to hang with Mark and Freddie Prince and Im SOOO EXCITED! and the weekend after that im going home thankfully. And then OCTOBER BREAK the 14th i think...and thats when im going to philly... 22 days until I see eric...im pathetic. and ive decided that im not going to call him until he calls me! I CANT BE SO WEAK! ok no more talking about him I promise. This weekend should be decent. Im going to the mall tomorrow with matthew and marianne to get some supplies for our smelly fly infested room..hehehe its not that bad. and saturday is a big drinking/homework day..and i have so much homework my brain is going to either explode or implode. allright, happy anniversary to me...