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have you ever felt sick to your stomach about something, but your not sick? thats how i feel right now. i just wish all this crap would just stop. i feel weak and as though i dont have any will power. i want my strength back. i also want my emotions back but i refuse to let any emotion over take me so i have shunned emotions from my mind. i am nothing. i feel nothing but the pain that i cant get to go away... im stuck in this internal battle of pain and i cant seem to free myself from it all. i wish my grandpa was here, i really need him right now...