Cereal and Alcohol
I don't say anything in this very often anymore. It's just not always worth it. But I feel it might be an interesting time for it.
Multiple things have backfired for me over the past week. I had a good thing going only to find I was getting screwed overall. Something else I thought might work out but the first thing kinda screwed up the second as far as timing goes. It doesn't exactly destroy the chances of things working out, but it definitely lowers the chances quite a bit. It's really just not a good feeling.
Last night I thought alcohol would be fun. It seems I don't enjoy it as much as I did at the beginning of the year. I stopped way before anyone else. It's better that way though. I would have ended up being upset and I didn't need that.
This whole entry isn't in my character at all. I'm almost always smiling and joking around. Doing my best to keep others in a good mood. The past week, however, I just can't seem to keep myself in a good mood. It's been the shittiest week I've ever had to deal with. I've learned that sometimes when a thing goes right, when it backfires, it's ten times worse.
I needed to make this entry just to let some things out. I know I didn't explain what exactly is going on, but all of my closest friends know. The bottom line is, it hurts a little and I just need to get it off my mind.
Hopefully I'll be back to my perky mood soon enough.
*Edit on 2-9-06 at 2:23 PM* See, now this is an entry where I should have been cutting myself while writing it. This is what I would like to call 'emo,' which is short for emotional. Now, I would generally make fun of a person who makes entries like this. That is why I am currently making fun of this entry. I was being retarded at the moment and find that I should not have done any of this. Remember, kids: alcohol does not solve your problems. I know that and should not have attempted drinking to fix problems. Soo....FUCK THIS ENTRY!!! I won't delete it, though, because I can always laugh at it. :-D
Multiple things have backfired for me over the past week. I had a good thing going only to find I was getting screwed overall. Something else I thought might work out but the first thing kinda screwed up the second as far as timing goes. It doesn't exactly destroy the chances of things working out, but it definitely lowers the chances quite a bit. It's really just not a good feeling.
Last night I thought alcohol would be fun. It seems I don't enjoy it as much as I did at the beginning of the year. I stopped way before anyone else. It's better that way though. I would have ended up being upset and I didn't need that.
This whole entry isn't in my character at all. I'm almost always smiling and joking around. Doing my best to keep others in a good mood. The past week, however, I just can't seem to keep myself in a good mood. It's been the shittiest week I've ever had to deal with. I've learned that sometimes when a thing goes right, when it backfires, it's ten times worse.
I needed to make this entry just to let some things out. I know I didn't explain what exactly is going on, but all of my closest friends know. The bottom line is, it hurts a little and I just need to get it off my mind.
Hopefully I'll be back to my perky mood soon enough.
*Edit on 2-9-06 at 2:23 PM* See, now this is an entry where I should have been cutting myself while writing it. This is what I would like to call 'emo,' which is short for emotional. Now, I would generally make fun of a person who makes entries like this. That is why I am currently making fun of this entry. I was being retarded at the moment and find that I should not have done any of this. Remember, kids: alcohol does not solve your problems. I know that and should not have attempted drinking to fix problems. Soo....FUCK THIS ENTRY!!! I won't delete it, though, because I can always laugh at it. :-D