Grindr
I had previously deleted Grindr after everything went to shit with Jacob. After a few days I had created my profile on there again, because it's the easiest way to find a guy. That's how I met Nick. That's also how I met Bradley, Dru, and Hagan.
I've talked about Nick already.
Bradley is the guy I invited over to hang out. He was super boring, and it was really awkward.
Dru plays Pokemon Go on campus a lot. My friend Nate was into him, so I yelled over to him to get Nate and Dru to talk. It was awkward. Nate didn't want to try anything, since they live over an hour apart. Dru and I have been chatting a bit as friends. I hung out with him for a bit the other night for Pokemon Go raid hour. Maybe I will hang out with him as a friend again soon.
Hagan is a gay grad student. We've been chatting a bit, but he seems too busy to hang out. I'm going to continue chatting with him and see if I can get him to hang out. If I can't, then I will just move on from that one.
Usually I have my profile pics up on Grindr. It's kinda hard to then look for anything sexual, since I am a professor on campus. So yesterday I tried something. I took my pics down. Modified my profile. And guys messaged me interested. My age still showed, so that's not the issue. The second I showed my face pic, they were no longer interested. So apparently I'm ugly. That's fun.
Finally...this morning when I woke up, I was thinking about Jacob. It's been almost two weeks since we last talked and that whole horrible night. I logged on to Grindr this morning. Jacob was on there. Apparently not only has he moved back to campus (since classes start Monday), but he has created a new Grindr profile. Which is odd, since he should be pretty committed to his boyfriend by now. Unless they broke up. Or are still dating but not serious? I have no idea. I shouldn't care. But I do. Ugh.
Anyway, time for a relaxing weekend. The new season of Lucifer dropped on Netflix. Netflix also recently added The Legend of Korra, which is a great show. And then Hulu added the old ThunderCats cartoon. That means I have a lot to watch online, plus I've started the second book of Wheel of Time. Relax. Breathe. Don't think about Jacob. Don't think about guys in general.
I can do this?