"F**k [Them], Let's Drink to Us
Hmm... so here's the deal, I'm actually gonna take some time off this 'ere thang and start writing in a REAL journal (as I've been telling myself for the longest time).
What's up with me... well, a lot of stuff has been happening and yet, nothing too much is going on. I'm still on my journey of finding my true identity... I know it sounds so adolescent and I should be past it, but I'm not. There are so many things that affect me - the way I think, my perceptions, my biases, my personality... especially lately. My mindset is that I want to be a chameleon - trying to please and/or shock everybody. The truth is, I'm so damn sick and tired of people thinking that they know me. In some peoples' eyes, all I am is some goody-two-shoes pure angel virgin or whatever... I may be some of those things, but that's not all there is to me. Yes, I am "normal" - I swear, I curse, I drink, I can be quite bold and gutsy when I wanna be. But I am NOT naive (well, in most cases anyway) and I'm not some gullible fool that you think you can overlook and label as "that good girl". Whatever, I have nothing to prove... Moving right along.
You know, I was thinking about it (in church, nonetheless) and that quote about friends that goes "It's not about quantity, but quality." I used to think that the more people like you (as in numbers) and the more friends you had, the better a person you were. Wow, you learn something new everyday. As I see the number of true friends going down, I'm really starting to appreciate and truly embrace the people that are left that I consider to be my closest friends (I <3 heart <3 you: Nance, Linds, Victoria and Aimee!!)
Oh, ok. Well, the thing is, I'm gonna go save up for a trip somewhere for next summer (Miami?) or something like that and I've decided that from now until then, I can't go out anymore and spend money, unless I promised you a movie [*Nance* and *Liza*], or if you're leaving to go off somewhere [i.e. Aimee = Boston], or another VERY SPECIAL exception. I can go out, it's just gotta be something like hanging out at someone's house [*Lydda, I'm SO sorry I haven't called you back... SOON, ok?! I have something for you too! ;)*] or as Steph said: "It's gotta have the word FREE in it!" Kapeesh?!
It's been a good few days... Yesterday, went to my bro's bball game, 1st one of the season. Awesome team!! Their coach is so cool. Very chill and awesome looking guy. Very patient and doesn't yell like no other unlike some coaches. They lost, but it was SUCH a good game! My poor bro tho, wasn't at his best cuz he had a bad sleep and, like, a bad lunch (well, not BAD but not very nutritious). Game was against Aimee's bro's team, Lamont's team. It was great cuz we got to hang with Aimee. Went to the 7-Eleven (my home! LOL) and got Cola Slurpees. MmMmMmM! Walked, and it was hot as a mofo!! Eeee! Aw, 'twas fun cuz we got to talk. And it was sooo nice knowing and being tight with someone from the park. It really makes it feel like home. Then later, went to my Kuya Paul's party in Tarzana. Had some good drinks. I had about 5-6 Smirnoffs, some vodka and coke, some raspberry Smirnoff and Sprite, and some Corona. And before that, some wine coolers. Never drank that much before, and I started to feel it. I don't think I was drunk (otherwise, wouldn't I not have remembered?! I dunno) but definitely a bit tipsy. Went home at 3am as opposed to 11pm... oops! Stayed up talking with my sissy... deep. We both felt so shitty after that. Yeah, makes me soooo depressed. Kinda like after the talk after the HK Wrap Party about how celebs are soooo fake. =***(
Woke up this morn at... noon! Yeah, was supposed to wake up at 11 to get ready for the day but ended up barely getting ready at like 12:15. Oy! Met up with Aimee at 1:30 in time to get to Burbank. Saw "A Cinderella Story". OMG, I loved it!! haha So cute, and the fact that it had soooo much of NoHo in there, made it awesome! And Aimee totally made me appreciate NoHo so much more!! I used to be so bummed to live here as opposed to, like, Toluca Lake or Burbank but I'm so proud I do. Hung out for a while. Ate some good stuff. A pizza from Sbarro, veggie egg rolls from Panda, a strawberry lemonade from Surf City and a Moolatte from DQ. Yeah I like a little of everything. Bumped into Ashleigh at the food court. Then went to Barnes to wait for mi madre and saw a hot man sitting by himself when we went to go to the Starbucks area. LMAO My sissy kept walking by him. I kept making Aimee laugh and almost spit her drink out. I love it!! Dropped Aimee off at home and then went to church where I saw Julie Dugan during communion when I was walking back to my seat and she smiled at me but before I realized it and could smile back. I did but she didn't see! Boo. You know, I really admire Julie. She's practically everything I wanna be. She's very positive, patient with even the jerkiest of kids at Confirmation, seems to be very happy with her life, graduated from CSUN and if I remember well, she had an awesome job, and she's sooo pretty, like girl-next-door pretty, which I think is the prettiest of them all! Man, and she's so religious but at the same time, very hip, so she makes being religious very cool. When I think about it, I wonder why and what is keeping me from working with Confirmation and/or Youth Ministry. And I think I know why... Very personal tho. Hmmm... maybe I'll go back to doing stuff later.
Oh ~ I am so diggin' this Willa song, "A Toast to Men"... The video is so hot as is the song. I LOVE IT!
"Girls, I'd like to make a toast on behalf of men
Here's to the men we love
Here's to the men who love us
Here's to the men we love who don't love us
F**k the men let's drink to us"
My take: "F**k [THEM] let's drink to us!!" Now if you don't mind, I'm gonna have a Strawberry Daiquiri...
What's up with me... well, a lot of stuff has been happening and yet, nothing too much is going on. I'm still on my journey of finding my true identity... I know it sounds so adolescent and I should be past it, but I'm not. There are so many things that affect me - the way I think, my perceptions, my biases, my personality... especially lately. My mindset is that I want to be a chameleon - trying to please and/or shock everybody. The truth is, I'm so damn sick and tired of people thinking that they know me. In some peoples' eyes, all I am is some goody-two-shoes pure angel virgin or whatever... I may be some of those things, but that's not all there is to me. Yes, I am "normal" - I swear, I curse, I drink, I can be quite bold and gutsy when I wanna be. But I am NOT naive (well, in most cases anyway) and I'm not some gullible fool that you think you can overlook and label as "that good girl". Whatever, I have nothing to prove... Moving right along.
You know, I was thinking about it (in church, nonetheless) and that quote about friends that goes "It's not about quantity, but quality." I used to think that the more people like you (as in numbers) and the more friends you had, the better a person you were. Wow, you learn something new everyday. As I see the number of true friends going down, I'm really starting to appreciate and truly embrace the people that are left that I consider to be my closest friends (I <3 heart <3 you: Nance, Linds, Victoria and Aimee!!)
Oh, ok. Well, the thing is, I'm gonna go save up for a trip somewhere for next summer (Miami?) or something like that and I've decided that from now until then, I can't go out anymore and spend money, unless I promised you a movie [*Nance* and *Liza*], or if you're leaving to go off somewhere [i.e. Aimee = Boston], or another VERY SPECIAL exception. I can go out, it's just gotta be something like hanging out at someone's house [*Lydda, I'm SO sorry I haven't called you back... SOON, ok?! I have something for you too! ;)*] or as Steph said: "It's gotta have the word FREE in it!" Kapeesh?!
It's been a good few days... Yesterday, went to my bro's bball game, 1st one of the season. Awesome team!! Their coach is so cool. Very chill and awesome looking guy. Very patient and doesn't yell like no other unlike some coaches. They lost, but it was SUCH a good game! My poor bro tho, wasn't at his best cuz he had a bad sleep and, like, a bad lunch (well, not BAD but not very nutritious). Game was against Aimee's bro's team, Lamont's team. It was great cuz we got to hang with Aimee. Went to the 7-Eleven (my home! LOL) and got Cola Slurpees. MmMmMmM! Walked, and it was hot as a mofo!! Eeee! Aw, 'twas fun cuz we got to talk. And it was sooo nice knowing and being tight with someone from the park. It really makes it feel like home. Then later, went to my Kuya Paul's party in Tarzana. Had some good drinks. I had about 5-6 Smirnoffs, some vodka and coke, some raspberry Smirnoff and Sprite, and some Corona. And before that, some wine coolers. Never drank that much before, and I started to feel it. I don't think I was drunk (otherwise, wouldn't I not have remembered?! I dunno) but definitely a bit tipsy. Went home at 3am as opposed to 11pm... oops! Stayed up talking with my sissy... deep. We both felt so shitty after that. Yeah, makes me soooo depressed. Kinda like after the talk after the HK Wrap Party about how celebs are soooo fake. =***(
Woke up this morn at... noon! Yeah, was supposed to wake up at 11 to get ready for the day but ended up barely getting ready at like 12:15. Oy! Met up with Aimee at 1:30 in time to get to Burbank. Saw "A Cinderella Story". OMG, I loved it!! haha So cute, and the fact that it had soooo much of NoHo in there, made it awesome! And Aimee totally made me appreciate NoHo so much more!! I used to be so bummed to live here as opposed to, like, Toluca Lake or Burbank but I'm so proud I do. Hung out for a while. Ate some good stuff. A pizza from Sbarro, veggie egg rolls from Panda, a strawberry lemonade from Surf City and a Moolatte from DQ. Yeah I like a little of everything. Bumped into Ashleigh at the food court. Then went to Barnes to wait for mi madre and saw a hot man sitting by himself when we went to go to the Starbucks area. LMAO My sissy kept walking by him. I kept making Aimee laugh and almost spit her drink out. I love it!! Dropped Aimee off at home and then went to church where I saw Julie Dugan during communion when I was walking back to my seat and she smiled at me but before I realized it and could smile back. I did but she didn't see! Boo. You know, I really admire Julie. She's practically everything I wanna be. She's very positive, patient with even the jerkiest of kids at Confirmation, seems to be very happy with her life, graduated from CSUN and if I remember well, she had an awesome job, and she's sooo pretty, like girl-next-door pretty, which I think is the prettiest of them all! Man, and she's so religious but at the same time, very hip, so she makes being religious very cool. When I think about it, I wonder why and what is keeping me from working with Confirmation and/or Youth Ministry. And I think I know why... Very personal tho. Hmmm... maybe I'll go back to doing stuff later.
Oh ~ I am so diggin' this Willa song, "A Toast to Men"... The video is so hot as is the song. I LOVE IT!
"Girls, I'd like to make a toast on behalf of men
Here's to the men we love
Here's to the men who love us
Here's to the men we love who don't love us
F**k the men let's drink to us"
My take: "F**k [THEM] let's drink to us!!" Now if you don't mind, I'm gonna have a Strawberry Daiquiri...