People come, people go.
So my summer job is turning out to be okay! The hours are kind of shitty because I keep having to miss work out classes I like to go to with my friends and on the weekends I can't always do the whismical plans my friends create because of my hours, but overall I wouldn't complain so much about it. The girls are SO cute (for the most part) and funny. Also, it still holds true that you can't always get what you want, and you can't please everyone. At this age, everyone wants to play the same few positions in softball, so someone is going to be upset no matter what. But there is no pleasing everyone, no matter how hard I try. This coming Sunday we have our "team bonding day" and I can't wait! But still, I can't WAIT for this job to be over and for school to start. It's really exciting to think about how those two things come at about the same time. Also when my work ends I'll have about a week of pure nothingness to just relax here and hang out with my friends.
The idea of a Phoenix is really interesting to me - that process of having a death and a rebirth. I think that having a sort of "death" like that is almost sort of necessary, I think you really do need to reach a kind of low point in your life to bounce back into your highest. You just need to reach that point and experience it to learn from it.
I finished the last Harry Potter book the other night, and holy shit that was probably the greatest ending I could ever think possible. It was SO interesting that Harry had to undergo that sort of "Phoenix complex" in the sense of having a death and a rebirth in order to save everyone. Just the whole entire idea was so intricate and amazing.
What's worse, stopping something good that's fake, or enjoying fake thing that's good and just waiting for it to explode into the bad thing it really is? I don't know, it's all so complicated. Sometimes I wish I wasn't faced with these problems. Why my family? We've all done our best, and given all we could to be good people and yet we face these hardships. I feel like it's a double edged sword with no right or wrong answer; one way or another I feel like things are gonna go bad. But is that pessimistic? I guess it could be worse, when thinking optimistically, yeah it could be way worse....at least I think.....? I don't know.
Stay happy!