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Man I totally can't sleep, and yeah I realize as I look at the clock it reads 4:44 am...which a few of you will catch the reference to.
My mind's in jumbles right now. My heart's being tugged in so many directions. One way of course is a positive one...yet negative at the same time. That one sucks the most.
Wednesday I was reminded of something (directly, most likely) that totally was not at a good time. I cried as the emotional pain just came swarming right in after I had convinced myself I was over it. Well guess what? I'm not. Some bridges ARE burned, and as far as I'm concerned, not only has it been burnt, the river below is all dried up.
Friday, I think it was, mom told me that the doctor had found a lump on her breast. They aren't sure what it is. She's getting a biopsy done Tuesday and she'll get the results on the 27th...so send your prayers and good thoughts (to whoever or whatever you pray to) to my mom please. I don't show it so it won't bother her, but (as bad as this comes out) I'm scared shitless. All these bad thoughts just run in of what could happen. I know I just need to relax and let God have his way, but right now that's really hard to do. Until it hits home, you never know what you'll think.
On an upside, I actually got to go to church this (or yesterday rather) morning! I haven't been home since Thanksgiving due to opera/finals so I've just not been able to make it. The kids did a cute program this morning and of course my nephews made everyone in the whole church crack up. Shew, those boys. lol
Tomorrow i'm starting my New Year's resolution early, which is to get in the best shape of my life. My sister has lost 21 pounds since she joined Curves and she is looking great!! So, that completely motivated me to get off my lazy rearend and do something. College really puts a cramp on your weight...lol. Well I really do need to go to bed. Love you all...well most...lol jk...or am I? =P
My mind's in jumbles right now. My heart's being tugged in so many directions. One way of course is a positive one...yet negative at the same time. That one sucks the most.
Wednesday I was reminded of something (directly, most likely) that totally was not at a good time. I cried as the emotional pain just came swarming right in after I had convinced myself I was over it. Well guess what? I'm not. Some bridges ARE burned, and as far as I'm concerned, not only has it been burnt, the river below is all dried up.
Friday, I think it was, mom told me that the doctor had found a lump on her breast. They aren't sure what it is. She's getting a biopsy done Tuesday and she'll get the results on the 27th...so send your prayers and good thoughts (to whoever or whatever you pray to) to my mom please. I don't show it so it won't bother her, but (as bad as this comes out) I'm scared shitless. All these bad thoughts just run in of what could happen. I know I just need to relax and let God have his way, but right now that's really hard to do. Until it hits home, you never know what you'll think.
On an upside, I actually got to go to church this (or yesterday rather) morning! I haven't been home since Thanksgiving due to opera/finals so I've just not been able to make it. The kids did a cute program this morning and of course my nephews made everyone in the whole church crack up. Shew, those boys. lol
Tomorrow i'm starting my New Year's resolution early, which is to get in the best shape of my life. My sister has lost 21 pounds since she joined Curves and she is looking great!! So, that completely motivated me to get off my lazy rearend and do something. College really puts a cramp on your weight...lol. Well I really do need to go to bed. Love you all...well most...lol jk...or am I? =P