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i hate it when i need something big to make me really look inside myself.
and really think about things.
like, when it takes a retreat to bring me closer to god.
i hate that i always fall out of that relationship after the retreat is over.
when i know i love being close to him, and i hate how i feel when i'm not.
and when it takes a new year to evaluate my life.
and try to figure out what i want in life,
and what i value,
and what i love.
i love my family.
(my brother told me today he either wants to be a lawyer, or own his own clothing store when he grows up. he even has a notebook with some clothing ideas in it. i think when i was his age i wanted to be a zoologist with my best friend johnny.)
i love my friends.
(this weekend at retreat, melisa and i went sledding, and we were going down the massive hill, and we hit a bump. she flew out and landed on her head then did a complete head over heel flip. and i flipped out and landed right on the side of my face, then skidded a little bit. the snow was icy, and i look like i got in a fight. but it was amazingly fun.)
&i love god. i really, really do.
&i don't want to forget that.
&i don't want to deny that.
i'm sorry if this huge thing is eating up your friends page.
happy new year.
and really think about things.
like, when it takes a retreat to bring me closer to god.
i hate that i always fall out of that relationship after the retreat is over.
when i know i love being close to him, and i hate how i feel when i'm not.
and when it takes a new year to evaluate my life.
and try to figure out what i want in life,
and what i value,
and what i love.
i love my family.
(my brother told me today he either wants to be a lawyer, or own his own clothing store when he grows up. he even has a notebook with some clothing ideas in it. i think when i was his age i wanted to be a zoologist with my best friend johnny.)
i love my friends.
(this weekend at retreat, melisa and i went sledding, and we were going down the massive hill, and we hit a bump. she flew out and landed on her head then did a complete head over heel flip. and i flipped out and landed right on the side of my face, then skidded a little bit. the snow was icy, and i look like i got in a fight. but it was amazingly fun.)
&i love god. i really, really do.
&i don't want to forget that.
&i don't want to deny that.
i'm sorry if this huge thing is eating up your friends page.
happy new year.