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I suddenly and very rapidly just depressed myself by thinking about living without my sisters. We've been together our whole fucking lives, y'know. They're my best friends but better.
Guess I didn't really realize until just now that whenever I imagine myself in the future the three of us are still together...
God I'm such a sap.
But I mean, here I am, sitting around talking about how I'll move up to Denver to live with my mom, just to escape my dad and I'm not thinking about how much of a bitch I'm being to my sisters. I'm not thinking about how I wouldn't be coming back here everyday and spending time with them. I know I kept talking about how worried I was about leaving them alone together (at least partially jokingly) but I guess I forgot that meant not just leaving them alone, it meant leaving them. I don't think I like that... I think... I really don't like that... 60 miles suddenly seems way too far away.
God... fucking feels...
Guess I didn't really realize until just now that whenever I imagine myself in the future the three of us are still together...
God I'm such a sap.
But I mean, here I am, sitting around talking about how I'll move up to Denver to live with my mom, just to escape my dad and I'm not thinking about how much of a bitch I'm being to my sisters. I'm not thinking about how I wouldn't be coming back here everyday and spending time with them. I know I kept talking about how worried I was about leaving them alone together (at least partially jokingly) but I guess I forgot that meant not just leaving them alone, it meant leaving them. I don't think I like that... I think... I really don't like that... 60 miles suddenly seems way too far away.
God... fucking feels...