Shake That Shit... Enjoy my vulgarity.
To have the single most...electrifying...sexual experience of one's life is markedly fantastic. To have that experience induced by one's own hand is a strike of providence.
Apart from ecstasy's embrace, the important thing is not the physical release, but the emotional and mental realization of control not only over my body, but in my life. Reservations of needing to appear prim, proper, intelligent, and controlled are not necessarily as important as I've been believing.
Do I really need look perfect to the rest of the world?
Is that even the image I portray?
Further... Can I appear perfect and controlled, and still have an unbridled side? Is it acceptable to embrace my sexuality, not only with others, but with myself?
Here's my thought. I don't strictly need the world to see me as perfect, but if they do, that's fantastic. If I can pull it off and look as though I always have a plan and know what I'm doing, fantastic, if not, no big deal. As for my sexuality, it is not only acceptable to embrace my sexuality, it is BETTER for me to embrace it with myself than with others. And here it is: I have a vibrator. I like it. Not only has it allowed me to remained physically satisfied in the absence of a sexual relationship, but it has allowed me to pursue healthier relationships with men, because the sexual drive is already being satisfied.
Today, I'm happy with myself.
Apart from ecstasy's embrace, the important thing is not the physical release, but the emotional and mental realization of control not only over my body, but in my life. Reservations of needing to appear prim, proper, intelligent, and controlled are not necessarily as important as I've been believing.
Do I really need look perfect to the rest of the world?
Is that even the image I portray?
Further... Can I appear perfect and controlled, and still have an unbridled side? Is it acceptable to embrace my sexuality, not only with others, but with myself?
Here's my thought. I don't strictly need the world to see me as perfect, but if they do, that's fantastic. If I can pull it off and look as though I always have a plan and know what I'm doing, fantastic, if not, no big deal. As for my sexuality, it is not only acceptable to embrace my sexuality, it is BETTER for me to embrace it with myself than with others. And here it is: I have a vibrator. I like it. Not only has it allowed me to remained physically satisfied in the absence of a sexual relationship, but it has allowed me to pursue healthier relationships with men, because the sexual drive is already being satisfied.
Today, I'm happy with myself.