this time -

[true_believer]

when you look back on it all it will be the same.

a story relating to a love
to a time
to a being
to a something that was outside of myself
it will be

it will be fifteen
it will be twenty two
it will be
thirty or more
it will be

im selfish
im undecided
im everything
because you have no one else to fill these lines.

i am
everything.

a mind working
a soul evoking
a sound placating
a piece of it all
i am

all

we passed into this 'adulthood' as we were
past.times video games
drawing books
she said he said.
we moved into it all.

waiting for a break
waiting for another to close it all up
to tell us it worked
it made sense it was ok
but who then
held held held
said.
its gonna be alright
its gonna be ok
its gonna be just right
they said so, from far away.

from far away.

so.
i write to no one
beside the boy who does not love me
how can you not love me

you dont love me.