face the crowd and take a bow...
is it really that fun to taunt me and call my bluff? you knew i wouldn't do it b/c i couldn't do it and i knew the same, but still!! It's irony at its finest and my humor is such that i can appreciate the entirety of the situation. Why not add end credits and charge a viewing fee--if you enjoy me this way i'm sure others will find it entertaining as well. But it's not your fault i've always been afraid. I'm just a little bitter when i think about everything. Maybe all those jokes haven't been so much a jest as an attempt to acquaint myself with the reality of me--i thought i could slip some sense in with all those smiles. fuck. is it wrong to believe that everything will turn out fine with me when it seems to be so shitty for lots of other people. maybe my idea of what "fine" is (or what i'd like it to be) is totally different from the reality of "fine". beware what you wish, right?