it's no surprise to me i am my own worst enemy...

[trudy_barnes]

I know i know this but sometimes I forget: when I have lows, they're seriously low. And in the past months i'm noticing an intensification of my cycle which never used to be a problem. I bleed more, i'm in way more pain and thus far my mood swings occur in a form similar to a jack knife off a cliff onto rocks below--i have yet to experience the "swing" that'll make me better--perhaps that will occur when I'm done.

But i was thinking of what i'll do in california when i hit one of my lows and i hope everything will turn out okay. it's scary to be so sad :-(