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whenever i think i'm finally able to deal with things i do something "wrong" and i get screamed at and break down.
and everytime i fix something i do so that it's not wrong anymore there's something new i'm not doing right.
my dad just had a "talk" with me and he told me he's never yelled at me and i should stop crying and that i'm just feeling sorry for myself and that i'm really mean to him all the time and that i don't listen to anything he says.
i agree that i'm a little mean to him, i try to ignore what he says because it upsets me and if i answer him he'll yell even more. and i hate that he'll scream at me and then five minutes later he'll try to hug me. that is so disgusting to me.
i can't believe he thinks he never yells at me. i can't believe he just tried to make me feel like a terrible daughter. i do EVERYTHING to try and make him happy.
i'm so sad i don't even know whats right or wrong anymore.
and don't say "sorry" because apprently this is all my fault and i suck.
and fuck i just saw that my brother didn't return the dvds that were due today and now i have to do it.
i want to not live here anymore. i just feel like shit when i'm at home.
i'm going to go because people are talking to me on aim and i don't feel like talking.
do me a favor and don't comment on this entry. i feel dumb for writing it. i'm just upset and my brother went to bed so there's no one hugging me anymore.
and everytime i fix something i do so that it's not wrong anymore there's something new i'm not doing right.
my dad just had a "talk" with me and he told me he's never yelled at me and i should stop crying and that i'm just feeling sorry for myself and that i'm really mean to him all the time and that i don't listen to anything he says.
i agree that i'm a little mean to him, i try to ignore what he says because it upsets me and if i answer him he'll yell even more. and i hate that he'll scream at me and then five minutes later he'll try to hug me. that is so disgusting to me.
i can't believe he thinks he never yells at me. i can't believe he just tried to make me feel like a terrible daughter. i do EVERYTHING to try and make him happy.
i'm so sad i don't even know whats right or wrong anymore.
and don't say "sorry" because apprently this is all my fault and i suck.
and fuck i just saw that my brother didn't return the dvds that were due today and now i have to do it.
i want to not live here anymore. i just feel like shit when i'm at home.
i'm going to go because people are talking to me on aim and i don't feel like talking.
do me a favor and don't comment on this entry. i feel dumb for writing it. i'm just upset and my brother went to bed so there's no one hugging me anymore.