What an amazing weekend.
Don’t get me wrong, putting things in the past is certainly no easy task. However, it is worth all of the effort. Things used to be beautiful and I can definitely cherish what was worth being remembered. A majority of the bliss and excitement from that relationship was a long time ago now. I think this is finally a time where I can genuinely smile for what I have accomplished: the creation of myself. I can define who I am without someone. It’s been a very long time since this was able to be said. Always from one relationship directly to the next. This time it’s different.
It’s been almost a month, approximately 3 weeks since we last really spoke. I’ve dropped the remaining few items that I had in my room off to his place. What’s left? Picture frames and the ring. I’m still debating on how to handle those items. Box it up and store it to decide later? Maybe just drop it off to him and let him make that decision? We’ll see.
What’s to come for me in this life? Well, not what I thought two years ago. I’m in a completely different place now than I ever thought I’d be. I’m a sophomore in college, working in a bank, and country line-dancing in my free time. This is a first time that I feel like I am my age (minus the responsibility of my job, lol)
As of late, I go out and hang out with friends. Who ever I want. There’s no one to dictate my evenings or events. It’s really a treat. Not that I was ever restricted, it’s just unacceptable in that kind of unstable relationship. I can be a loner and go places by myself, or I can call Alisha or Andrew to join me. It's easy to talk to anyone these days.
Hard to believe we moved out from each other 14 months ago and it was downhill after that. I mean, really… if you can’t fix it in 14 months, something tells me I should’ve just stopped trying. Of course, at least I can say I tried to see it through, with the dedication I can be proud of. When it doesn’t work, it’s just not meant to be. That’s all this was.. A relationship that just didn’t work.
Well, enough convincing myself it’s all taken care of and behind me.
This past week and weekend was awesome. I have so much to look forward to in the coming weeks too! Cowboys is my spot for Thursdays and Fridays. Saturday’s sometimes! Friday I was invited last minute to a Black and White party with 200+ people! It gave me a chance to go out and buy a dress! Wow, I know. It had been a while since I had gone to a formal event as a date! Wait, like 2005 maybe? Although I had to work Saturday, (which was hard to wake up for!) I made it through! Enjoyed an Andrew home-cooked meal of country fried steak and fried okra. (yum!) Watched a bit of the game and headed to Cowboys! Another long night and waking up early, but all for the right reasons. 6:00am came around way too early, but it did and we were all up and ready, heading to Rainbow River, specifically KP Hole park. River Run 2010!
There was 29 of us that showed, driving in 6-7 different cars. What a nice road trip there too! (1 ½ hours away) Blowing up the floats, applying sunscreen, taking a group photo, and plunging into a crystal clear river! It was something I would’ve never dreamed of doing! The great part being I was surrounded by people who were accepting, funny, smart, and all down to earth. What a great mix of UCF (and other college) graduates. (07-08 grads, which should’ve been my year to graduate!) It’s already been inferred by this point, I had a blast!
Floating down the river for hours was absolutely a perfect day. And date too! I was tied to Andrew for the trip, occasionally floating off, taking a dip, and going exploring. It was certainly a day to remember. Can you imagine 30 people in individual floats, drinking heavily, floating down a river? :)
So, that’s my weekend. Full of spontanity, fun, laughs, and great company. Randy Hauser concert on Tuesday and Memorial Day weekend around the corner. Can you say beach, friends, and fun!? Not to mention, dance classes on the first Saturday of every month from now!
Oh, and can I mention how crazy it is to actually DATE someone? Not go 0-60 into a relationship. Occasionally we talk, hang out, I’m invited, included, introduced, and at the same time it is moving so slow. Like, hold my hand on the first date kind of slow. I could go on and on with how the direction of life can change with the small things being appreciated!
My future is bright and I get to look forward towards the sun.
I’m happy of the unknown ahead of me, wow!
It’s been almost a month, approximately 3 weeks since we last really spoke. I’ve dropped the remaining few items that I had in my room off to his place. What’s left? Picture frames and the ring. I’m still debating on how to handle those items. Box it up and store it to decide later? Maybe just drop it off to him and let him make that decision? We’ll see.
What’s to come for me in this life? Well, not what I thought two years ago. I’m in a completely different place now than I ever thought I’d be. I’m a sophomore in college, working in a bank, and country line-dancing in my free time. This is a first time that I feel like I am my age (minus the responsibility of my job, lol)
As of late, I go out and hang out with friends. Who ever I want. There’s no one to dictate my evenings or events. It’s really a treat. Not that I was ever restricted, it’s just unacceptable in that kind of unstable relationship. I can be a loner and go places by myself, or I can call Alisha or Andrew to join me. It's easy to talk to anyone these days.
Hard to believe we moved out from each other 14 months ago and it was downhill after that. I mean, really… if you can’t fix it in 14 months, something tells me I should’ve just stopped trying. Of course, at least I can say I tried to see it through, with the dedication I can be proud of. When it doesn’t work, it’s just not meant to be. That’s all this was.. A relationship that just didn’t work.
Well, enough convincing myself it’s all taken care of and behind me.
This past week and weekend was awesome. I have so much to look forward to in the coming weeks too! Cowboys is my spot for Thursdays and Fridays. Saturday’s sometimes! Friday I was invited last minute to a Black and White party with 200+ people! It gave me a chance to go out and buy a dress! Wow, I know. It had been a while since I had gone to a formal event as a date! Wait, like 2005 maybe? Although I had to work Saturday, (which was hard to wake up for!) I made it through! Enjoyed an Andrew home-cooked meal of country fried steak and fried okra. (yum!) Watched a bit of the game and headed to Cowboys! Another long night and waking up early, but all for the right reasons. 6:00am came around way too early, but it did and we were all up and ready, heading to Rainbow River, specifically KP Hole park. River Run 2010!
There was 29 of us that showed, driving in 6-7 different cars. What a nice road trip there too! (1 ½ hours away) Blowing up the floats, applying sunscreen, taking a group photo, and plunging into a crystal clear river! It was something I would’ve never dreamed of doing! The great part being I was surrounded by people who were accepting, funny, smart, and all down to earth. What a great mix of UCF (and other college) graduates. (07-08 grads, which should’ve been my year to graduate!) It’s already been inferred by this point, I had a blast!
Floating down the river for hours was absolutely a perfect day. And date too! I was tied to Andrew for the trip, occasionally floating off, taking a dip, and going exploring. It was certainly a day to remember. Can you imagine 30 people in individual floats, drinking heavily, floating down a river? :)
So, that’s my weekend. Full of spontanity, fun, laughs, and great company. Randy Hauser concert on Tuesday and Memorial Day weekend around the corner. Can you say beach, friends, and fun!? Not to mention, dance classes on the first Saturday of every month from now!
Oh, and can I mention how crazy it is to actually DATE someone? Not go 0-60 into a relationship. Occasionally we talk, hang out, I’m invited, included, introduced, and at the same time it is moving so slow. Like, hold my hand on the first date kind of slow. I could go on and on with how the direction of life can change with the small things being appreciated!
My future is bright and I get to look forward towards the sun.
I’m happy of the unknown ahead of me, wow!