catastrophic
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i don't know why i am updating this insane livejournal...i love my xanga. but i think its because rarely people read this and i can pour my emotions in here with out worrying about what i have said to piss any one person off. i look deeply inside me to figure out what i can do about this situaion that i am currently stuck in. its not a bad one, just something that i need to figure out. its like, if i go hook up with this one guy, will i get attatched again? but he isn't with that one girl anymore? so will i feel like i need to be attatched? i don't know. its complicated and crazy. but i think that i can figure it all out. i want to go see this guy tonight...i'm not expecting anything, not hoping for anything, just going to hang out, whatever happens, well, happens.
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is that the way i should live? or should i plan everything out? how contemplative can one mind get in one day? its all i've been thinking about. there is no school for me today, just my thoughts running wild inside my some what messed up head. crazy? i'd say so...
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i'm done for today. love and hope and smiles for all of you.
heidi b.
i don't know why i am updating this insane livejournal...i love my xanga. but i think its because rarely people read this and i can pour my emotions in here with out worrying about what i have said to piss any one person off. i look deeply inside me to figure out what i can do about this situaion that i am currently stuck in. its not a bad one, just something that i need to figure out. its like, if i go hook up with this one guy, will i get attatched again? but he isn't with that one girl anymore? so will i feel like i need to be attatched? i don't know. its complicated and crazy. but i think that i can figure it all out. i want to go see this guy tonight...i'm not expecting anything, not hoping for anything, just going to hang out, whatever happens, well, happens.
...
is that the way i should live? or should i plan everything out? how contemplative can one mind get in one day? its all i've been thinking about. there is no school for me today, just my thoughts running wild inside my some what messed up head. crazy? i'd say so...
...
i'm done for today. love and hope and smiles for all of you.
heidi b.