Very Very Depressed
Right now how I'm feeling I cant even explain.
I am happy my cousin is gettin married
I am depressed b/c Chris hasnt called me at all today and we were supposed to hang out with his brother and sister-in-law, and I really REALLY wanted to get outta the house and see him b4 I left for Colorado.
Tomarow I am gonna tell my dad to drop me by Chris' house for a little bit b/c I REALLY REALLY REALLY NEEEEEEED to see him. I mean it's not even the fact that we didnt hang out today that bothers me it's the fact that he didnt even call to tell me that so I had to sit around all day in my house and wait for a call that wasnt coming. I just dont need this right now, I need him. I need Leah, too. See that's another thing if he had called me today I could have hung out with Leah b4 I left for colorado, but YET AGAIN he didnt call me today, and I cant get a hold of him b/c he is at his brother's obviously and when I called his parents phone this morning they were all gone too. So I am assuming that they are all over there. And that's the reason I wouldnt be able to come over, b/c we were all gonna smoke and get drunk.
I dont think that his parents like me that much. One b/c I am a "bad girl" and two b/c I ran away that one time and my parents being dumbasses called the cops and the sheriff visited Chris' house and they really dont need that down there. But he is trying to convince me that his parents dont not like me and they just look down on the fact that I ran away.
I really like his family, everybody but his parents (in my opinion) like me, I like being with him, everytime I'm with him it seems like all my porblems just go away, and that's how I feel when I talk to him too. I just really really really like him. I just really miss him and want to see him now. Well now that I am depressed and Trish is breathing down my neck I think I will sign off and go work out or go call my cousin and head out to a party. I need something tonight....i need Chris but that's not gonna happen tonight.
pz
I am happy my cousin is gettin married
I am depressed b/c Chris hasnt called me at all today and we were supposed to hang out with his brother and sister-in-law, and I really REALLY wanted to get outta the house and see him b4 I left for Colorado.
Tomarow I am gonna tell my dad to drop me by Chris' house for a little bit b/c I REALLY REALLY REALLY NEEEEEEED to see him. I mean it's not even the fact that we didnt hang out today that bothers me it's the fact that he didnt even call to tell me that so I had to sit around all day in my house and wait for a call that wasnt coming. I just dont need this right now, I need him. I need Leah, too. See that's another thing if he had called me today I could have hung out with Leah b4 I left for colorado, but YET AGAIN he didnt call me today, and I cant get a hold of him b/c he is at his brother's obviously and when I called his parents phone this morning they were all gone too. So I am assuming that they are all over there. And that's the reason I wouldnt be able to come over, b/c we were all gonna smoke and get drunk.
I dont think that his parents like me that much. One b/c I am a "bad girl" and two b/c I ran away that one time and my parents being dumbasses called the cops and the sheriff visited Chris' house and they really dont need that down there. But he is trying to convince me that his parents dont not like me and they just look down on the fact that I ran away.
I really like his family, everybody but his parents (in my opinion) like me, I like being with him, everytime I'm with him it seems like all my porblems just go away, and that's how I feel when I talk to him too. I just really really really like him. I just really miss him and want to see him now. Well now that I am depressed and Trish is breathing down my neck I think I will sign off and go work out or go call my cousin and head out to a party. I need something tonight....i need Chris but that's not gonna happen tonight.
pz