Adjusting
Time seems to fly even though I'm always watching the calendar. I can't believe that its almost November. In 33 days I get to go home for Thanksgiving. I can't wait. Another month after that is Christmas and my time with BRT is nearly half over. I still feel like I just got here and am still a fish swimming from my little pond to the ocean. Then I look at what I've learned over the last couple months and the responsibility I have now. So much is changing and its only just begun.
We just opened another show, Eurydice, and it went well. Not only did the show captivate all 385(ish) members of the audience, but I enjoyed myself too. I remembered coming to the opening of The Secret in the Wings and how tense I was. It opened only a couple weeks after I started and I had no idea what to do with myself. My entire vibe for opening night was must more relaxed on Wednesday. I felt comfortable and confident as I chatted with various people. I had related with the actors and designers through the whole production process. So chatting over champange and wine with the cast wasn't intimidating. I loved it. Hugging designers after the show was natural. I was able to spend an evening with a room stuffed with strangers and not have the chill of anxiety consume me. It was fabulous.
Now I just need to work on socializing at the meet & greets, a whole new bunch of strangers. I think not having Madelyn and Wil around helped. Not because they're my supervisor's, but the because they want to talk with people about the same things. Usually its production talk about what has been going on and what still needs to be done. So we'll see. I think I still feel strange when I think of myself as being shy and having a form of social anxiety. I always thought of myself as more of a social butterfly than a wall flower. Amazing what life teaches you.
In the meantime, I'm going enjoy the feeling of being free and not forced to my office or behind the bar.
I have a busy weekend ahead, and look forward to rest on Thursday or so. I may decide to not go to the concert in Fremont on Sunday and sleep a lot. We'll see...
:o)
We just opened another show, Eurydice, and it went well. Not only did the show captivate all 385(ish) members of the audience, but I enjoyed myself too. I remembered coming to the opening of The Secret in the Wings and how tense I was. It opened only a couple weeks after I started and I had no idea what to do with myself. My entire vibe for opening night was must more relaxed on Wednesday. I felt comfortable and confident as I chatted with various people. I had related with the actors and designers through the whole production process. So chatting over champange and wine with the cast wasn't intimidating. I loved it. Hugging designers after the show was natural. I was able to spend an evening with a room stuffed with strangers and not have the chill of anxiety consume me. It was fabulous.
Now I just need to work on socializing at the meet & greets, a whole new bunch of strangers. I think not having Madelyn and Wil around helped. Not because they're my supervisor's, but the because they want to talk with people about the same things. Usually its production talk about what has been going on and what still needs to be done. So we'll see. I think I still feel strange when I think of myself as being shy and having a form of social anxiety. I always thought of myself as more of a social butterfly than a wall flower. Amazing what life teaches you.
In the meantime, I'm going enjoy the feeling of being free and not forced to my office or behind the bar.
I have a busy weekend ahead, and look forward to rest on Thursday or so. I may decide to not go to the concert in Fremont on Sunday and sleep a lot. We'll see...
:o)