restless nights
I figured id through a couple of things out there, maybe help prevent the hours of thought. Unless your really close to me and i tell you like everything your not gonna get any of this (still might not get some of it)I thought id tell you now to prevent annoyance and wonder:
-your annoying
-i miss you
-i feel weird when i talk to you
-your constant questions drive me insane
-i dont want to wait around and always promised myself that i would never do that but nothing else feels right so i just end up waiting for you anyway and i hate that
-i miss abner
-i dont like the way things ended with you
-when you left it felt...sad, but not really...unsure,but only a little....confused, but in a confusing away...glad that you had came at all...unfinished, like it didnt really end...all of these make it sound like i was like crying but i wasnt, im just trying to find the right word, but none of these really fit....it was something they havent made a word for yet, kinda a mix of all of these, and a couple less deppressing words, but not happy ones either....i dont think they have made those either.
-I...well i think i...but maybe not...it feels sort of like i do...but im not sure...maybe
theres more of course, i just cant think of them right now, so of course i will spend tonight thinking of them. Oh well, its not any diffrent from any other night lately.
I better go, its midnight now and if i want to fall asleep before four in the morning, i'll have to start now.
-your annoying
-i miss you
-i feel weird when i talk to you
-your constant questions drive me insane
-i dont want to wait around and always promised myself that i would never do that but nothing else feels right so i just end up waiting for you anyway and i hate that
-i miss abner
-i dont like the way things ended with you
-when you left it felt...sad, but not really...unsure,but only a little....confused, but in a confusing away...glad that you had came at all...unfinished, like it didnt really end...all of these make it sound like i was like crying but i wasnt, im just trying to find the right word, but none of these really fit....it was something they havent made a word for yet, kinda a mix of all of these, and a couple less deppressing words, but not happy ones either....i dont think they have made those either.
-I...well i think i...but maybe not...it feels sort of like i do...but im not sure...maybe
theres more of course, i just cant think of them right now, so of course i will spend tonight thinking of them. Oh well, its not any diffrent from any other night lately.
I better go, its midnight now and if i want to fall asleep before four in the morning, i'll have to start now.