Truth be told I miss you.
Today would've been my brother Brian's 31st birthday. for some reason I had to write this because I couldn't find it in me to say it aloud all day. I wanted to tell people, but I feel like once you say things out loud that makes them real, even though I know its real it has been for 2 years now idk i think thats right my years get mixed up after 2006 and I'm not even sure if he wouldve been 31 it mite 30 or 32 my dad said 32 but im pretty sure thats not right it doesnt matter im an idiot and I sound like an ass for not knowing but usually I just let this day go by as any other and I really only get up set on holidays like thanksgiving which was such a treat.
It's really such a bullshit holiday to begin with but it was really bad this year. Cause i realized i only ever got excited about that day cause we got to see Brian i got to hangout with him and Jimmy and I just felt like im a dork but the coolest person ever. My brothers are pretty much the coolest people ive ever known and i sound like a fuckin nsync groupie but i seriously used to get so jazzed when i got hangout with them. Anyway i cried on thanksgiving we ate dinner super early then everybody went to sleep and went into my room and cried cause i miss brian so much if he was there, there wouldve been games and fun and instead there were tears. I'm such an emo kid but whatever atleast now I get to look forward to Christmas.- angel
It's really such a bullshit holiday to begin with but it was really bad this year. Cause i realized i only ever got excited about that day cause we got to see Brian i got to hangout with him and Jimmy and I just felt like im a dork but the coolest person ever. My brothers are pretty much the coolest people ive ever known and i sound like a fuckin nsync groupie but i seriously used to get so jazzed when i got hangout with them. Anyway i cried on thanksgiving we ate dinner super early then everybody went to sleep and went into my room and cried cause i miss brian so much if he was there, there wouldve been games and fun and instead there were tears. I'm such an emo kid but whatever atleast now I get to look forward to Christmas.- angel