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I know..its been FOREVER since Ive posted..but here I am. I got a myspace account...and it seems like my ex's from my army days looked me up. I dont really care for Paul, the crack head, or Adam (who got FAT since we split)...but Chris..who I didnt really date...but we hung out...he kinda matters.
But what I cant decide is...does he matter b/c he is throwing the fact that he is getting married in my face....or do I really care for him. Im hoping its just the fact that he is taken...by a girl that, honestly, just isnt that great looking. But it doesnt matter what I think, he loves her, thats all that matters...and I will be.....happy for him.
That was hard to say. It was just a shock to me...that he looks ME up and sends me messages about when we went to Panama City for spring break, and when I went to Bragg to stay with him....and chats with me on AIM...its confusing. Then he pops up talking about his fiance, which he calls his wife, and it kinda gets to me.
Maybe Im just jealous. That he found someone...and it wasnt me. ?? Like Im just not good enough for anyone?? You know? Maybe im just being crazy...Ill shut up now. just needed to write about it.
But what I cant decide is...does he matter b/c he is throwing the fact that he is getting married in my face....or do I really care for him. Im hoping its just the fact that he is taken...by a girl that, honestly, just isnt that great looking. But it doesnt matter what I think, he loves her, thats all that matters...and I will be.....happy for him.
That was hard to say. It was just a shock to me...that he looks ME up and sends me messages about when we went to Panama City for spring break, and when I went to Bragg to stay with him....and chats with me on AIM...its confusing. Then he pops up talking about his fiance, which he calls his wife, and it kinda gets to me.
Maybe Im just jealous. That he found someone...and it wasnt me. ?? Like Im just not good enough for anyone?? You know? Maybe im just being crazy...Ill shut up now. just needed to write about it.