I hate myself right now because I'm so frustrated and depressed
Notice how I didn't use the [horrible] word "emo". That's a type of music folks and a bad name for it, because in all "technicalities" all music is "emo" because, well, mostly all music is driven from emotions and mindsets. But arguing over names of genres is not the reason of the subject, although, right now, I wish it was. Would be a lot easier on myself too because I'm right. Wow how arrogant was that.
Well basically I wrote all that just to say the one point I have to say which is that it really sucks when you know just how not "good-looking" (I don't wanna damage myself anymore than I have to)you are when you want to go ask someone else out and know they won't say yes. Of course, that is hypocritical because one person did say yes last spring. But that's not the point. The point is that I don't have the balls to ask a girl out because a)(i hate learning psychology) fear of rejection, b)knowing i'm pretty sure I'm not all that great looking to anybody, c) I hate my "genes + hereditary crap (genes again)+ fast metabolism=skin and bones" equation.
Wow, I sound like a freaking pansy. I really don't have balls because I shouldn't care what people think. Just wait for yes or no. I don't need someone to make me happy. But, :sniffs the air::, can't you just smell the pungent breath of hypocrisy?
But, in all seriousness, I will have to solve this problem. Might be slow(hopefully not), but I better have this crap done by the end of the year.
WOw, that is slow.
And I just found out she's cuban (I would have never known if someone didn't tell me) and wait! What luck. My mom doesn't want me to go out with cubans because she doesn't like them.
WHoo. that was long. I guess this ushers in a new era of journal writing. That's bad. THis is bad. I don't want anybody to know my inner thoughts, but I just wrote this. I think my subconscious is demanding sympathy and help. Please be nice.
Well basically I wrote all that just to say the one point I have to say which is that it really sucks when you know just how not "good-looking" (I don't wanna damage myself anymore than I have to)you are when you want to go ask someone else out and know they won't say yes. Of course, that is hypocritical because one person did say yes last spring. But that's not the point. The point is that I don't have the balls to ask a girl out because a)(i hate learning psychology) fear of rejection, b)knowing i'm pretty sure I'm not all that great looking to anybody, c) I hate my "genes + hereditary crap (genes again)+ fast metabolism=skin and bones" equation.
Wow, I sound like a freaking pansy. I really don't have balls because I shouldn't care what people think. Just wait for yes or no. I don't need someone to make me happy. But, :sniffs the air::, can't you just smell the pungent breath of hypocrisy?
But, in all seriousness, I will have to solve this problem. Might be slow(hopefully not), but I better have this crap done by the end of the year.
WOw, that is slow.
And I just found out she's cuban (I would have never known if someone didn't tell me) and wait! What luck. My mom doesn't want me to go out with cubans because she doesn't like them.
WHoo. that was long. I guess this ushers in a new era of journal writing. That's bad. THis is bad. I don't want anybody to know my inner thoughts, but I just wrote this. I think my subconscious is demanding sympathy and help. Please be nice.