good news or bad news
ok... so 2 nights ago i found out that my boyfriend OD'd on something. it was something like acid i think. but he got flown to ann arbor tuesday night, and still isnt back. i havent talked to him, and i wont be able to see him. all i know is that right now he is on a breather, and is extremely weak. he had plans to join the army so he could straighten out his life for me. i think i am the one that caused everything.
he wanted to make his life better so my mom would like him, and join the army so he could turn out to be a fire fighter in the long run. but it was all for me. if i wasnt here, he wouldnt have gone to the hospital. he would go and then sov had to keep saying "Do it for tara. if you wont do it for anyone else do it for her" and so he did it.
he wrote me this letter. i've never gotten one that really meant anything like this.
Tara
hello my beautiful little angel, ive been laying in bed all day thinking of you wishing that we could be together. if only for a couple of minutes ust so i could tell you i love you while looking into your eyes. how long do we have to wait before i can see you smile or hear you laugh? it doesnt really matter b/c you and i both know we will be together again. no one can stop us only slow us down.
even if life ceased to exist, if the entire world froze over, if everyting went pitch black, i would still find you. i wont give up. i wont die until im with you. we will be happy and together because its you and me forever.
the day will come, everything will be ok, who knows me and your mom might even get along. i wish she could see past my age, if only she could see thatim not a bad guy. she could ask anyone, zac, or donnie even anyone that hangs out with us.
im not gonna go to florida, plans were made money saved, but im not gonna run. im not gonna leave you. i said i would stand up against god for you and it looks like i might have to. im gonna save up money, fix my car, im gonna fix everything for you. you'll get older and we'll take off anywhere. you've given new meaning to my life, i only hope you feel the same. i love you more htan anything, i always will and ill always be there for you.
and hey, if your mom wants to meet me just tell me when adn where. it might be a star, she cant be all that bad. just look what she brought into the world. ironically enough, if it wasnt for herwe never would have had a chance.
well sweetheart, until that day i'll be waiting
i love you
yours truely
Corey
isnt that the cutest thing!!! and the crazy thing is... He means it.
but he just wanted to join the army for me. he didnt really realize what he was getting himself into. now i have a ton of guilt. and my mom wont even let me go with his mom to the hospital to visit him. i hate it.
he wanted to make his life better so my mom would like him, and join the army so he could turn out to be a fire fighter in the long run. but it was all for me. if i wasnt here, he wouldnt have gone to the hospital. he would go and then sov had to keep saying "Do it for tara. if you wont do it for anyone else do it for her" and so he did it.
he wrote me this letter. i've never gotten one that really meant anything like this.
Tara
hello my beautiful little angel, ive been laying in bed all day thinking of you wishing that we could be together. if only for a couple of minutes ust so i could tell you i love you while looking into your eyes. how long do we have to wait before i can see you smile or hear you laugh? it doesnt really matter b/c you and i both know we will be together again. no one can stop us only slow us down.
even if life ceased to exist, if the entire world froze over, if everyting went pitch black, i would still find you. i wont give up. i wont die until im with you. we will be happy and together because its you and me forever.
the day will come, everything will be ok, who knows me and your mom might even get along. i wish she could see past my age, if only she could see thatim not a bad guy. she could ask anyone, zac, or donnie even anyone that hangs out with us.
im not gonna go to florida, plans were made money saved, but im not gonna run. im not gonna leave you. i said i would stand up against god for you and it looks like i might have to. im gonna save up money, fix my car, im gonna fix everything for you. you'll get older and we'll take off anywhere. you've given new meaning to my life, i only hope you feel the same. i love you more htan anything, i always will and ill always be there for you.
and hey, if your mom wants to meet me just tell me when adn where. it might be a star, she cant be all that bad. just look what she brought into the world. ironically enough, if it wasnt for herwe never would have had a chance.
well sweetheart, until that day i'll be waiting
i love you
yours truely
Corey
isnt that the cutest thing!!! and the crazy thing is... He means it.
but he just wanted to join the army for me. he didnt really realize what he was getting himself into. now i have a ton of guilt. and my mom wont even let me go with his mom to the hospital to visit him. i hate it.