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Y'know things lately have gotten so bad, that tonight was the third night in a row I sat down and cried. And, it just feels like nothings ever gonna be better or even the same. I feel like no matter how hard I try it just never gonna be good enough. I do so many things for certain family members it just feels like I have nothing left to give, and makes me feel like I'm their doormat and I hate it!
Even as I sit here typing I'm crying, I can't help but look at my life now and see how bad things have gotten and I just wish that I could have one day where I'm not so miserable that by the time that day is over I'm in my room in tears.
Usually I escape my life through my writting however since my life has become so awefully hectic lately I haven't been able to mask my feelings by writting. I wish I could write it's theraputic for me. However, getting my feelings out there isn't very theraputic, it makes it possible for people to try hurting me worse. And, at this point I think if anyone did that I'd just have a complete breakdown.
To tell the truth there's really only two people I've spoken to about the things that are happening in my life right now. I just feel I've known them long enough, and well enough to trust them. Plus, I talk to them everyday. So, I just wanna say thanks to Glitter and Celebrity, y'all have helped so much just letting me talk about it.
<3,
Heathe
Even as I sit here typing I'm crying, I can't help but look at my life now and see how bad things have gotten and I just wish that I could have one day where I'm not so miserable that by the time that day is over I'm in my room in tears.
Usually I escape my life through my writting however since my life has become so awefully hectic lately I haven't been able to mask my feelings by writting. I wish I could write it's theraputic for me. However, getting my feelings out there isn't very theraputic, it makes it possible for people to try hurting me worse. And, at this point I think if anyone did that I'd just have a complete breakdown.
To tell the truth there's really only two people I've spoken to about the things that are happening in my life right now. I just feel I've known them long enough, and well enough to trust them. Plus, I talk to them everyday. So, I just wanna say thanks to Glitter and Celebrity, y'all have helped so much just letting me talk about it.
<3,
Heathe