tired.
i'm sick now. i am...mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. i take the GRE on friday, and i'm completely underprepared. i am looking at quantitative reasoning prep work that makes me want to keel over. i don't know how to do all of this at once. i don't know how to feel this sick and study and rock it and keep shining on when my heart feels so broken and my body so ill. i know i'll make it through somehow, i always do, but right now i just want to lie down and cry. this is too much pressure, this is too much, this is too much at once, and if i believed in a god, i'd appeal to him, i feel that lost. this isn't what i want for myself, this isn't good, this isn't healthy, this is too much. i need help. i need help. i need some fucking mercy.