Ramblings
I know I shouldn't be jealous of Michelle but I just can't help it. It would be one thing if I really believed they were just friends. But I know they are something more. And the idea of Derrick doing anything with her, well, it partly breaks my heart. It really does. And I try to laugh it off. And I try to ignore it. And I try to move on, to distract myself with someone else, ANYone else. But somehow I can't. Somehow I fell for him. And I wonder if I'll ever get over it. I wonder if I even want to.