Mentalities.

[troublednights]

I was assigned to visiting the families or known close relatives of the latest victims dealing with the box cases, to give them the news that someone they knew wasn’t going to be coming home.

The many reactions were rather straining on someone like me, some were stereotypical, sobbing, cursing, anger, despair and the occasional closing up

Comments

[striginae]

I -- suppose the basis of grief is uniform in almost everyone. It must be a difficult job, to deliver such terrible news.

[troublednights]

I was ashamed at myself, because that uniform came as a surprise to me.
I feel I've gotten myself a little lost int he Elysian views of whats all below.

It's a disheartening job, yes. Having to tell a child they're daddies not coming home.

That kills me the most.

[striginae]

I feel that the level of corruption in some parts of the city makes it easy to forget that many are just human, in the end. I am sure that you are not the only one who has had such thoughts.

I pray that the culprit will be caught, soon -- so that such terrible news will no longer have to be delivered.

[troublednights]

But even if the killer is caught...I'll still have to give such news, as another criminal will move into the empty slot.

Sometimes I wonder if I make a difference at all.

[striginae]

I do not believe that your actions are futile -- it does make a difference. To eradicate crime entirely may be impossible -- but to better the city by even one person is sure to help.

[troublednights]

Please excuse me! I-- I just get weak sometimes.

It's wrong for me to think I make no difference, after all I couldn't imagine stepping back and doing nothing.

Ah- How are you fairing Nagi-san? It has been a while since our last minor conversation over the network.
Your children in the class must be frazzled.

[striginae]

An understandable situation -- it must be a terribly difficult job. Your perseverance is truly admirable.

And yes, several of the parents have been keeping their children at home, out of fear -- it's a rather hectic situation. But I suppose I am fortunate in that none of them were injured during these times.

[troublednights]

It's...it's not really admirable.

Perhaps you should try getting in contact with those parents, maybe try setting up classes over the network for them so they don't fall behind?

[striginae]

Do you think so? I feel that it is nothing less than respectable, to continue to working for a righteous cause.

Ah -- I had already offered home tutoring, but that also sounds like a feasible option. Thank you for the suggestion.

Strikes = typed but then erased in second thought.

[troublednights]

Righteous cause? I wouldn't call it that, I'd call it a selfish cause.

Oh it's- no problem! None at all...I mean it'll be harder for you to do home tutoring if more and more keep being pulled out.

[striginae]

I suppose so -- I do try to get to my students on a one-to-one basis, but perhaps I've underestimated the workload.

[troublednights]

I'm sure you'll be able to handle it all Nagi-san.
You seem to be a very calm, determined, optimistic individual.

[striginae]

You -- think too highly of me, Seiju-san. But I will try my best.

I wish you the best of luck, as well.

[troublednights]

Thank you, I- I kind of need it.