Brush aside.

[troublednights]

I--am not to sure about keeping myself entertained on the network…but here I am anyway- at the Cyber-Café- since I do not own a computer of my own at home. It’s kind of loud here…so many electronic noises...it’s making that ringing in my ears louder.

I really don’t know what to say…can one be internet shy?

But I suppose typing away here

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[notemotionless]

Get your own computer and you won't have that noise anymore.

You'd be surprised about how many people actually listen.

[troublednights]

That sounds like something that would come out of either a paranoid person or…a thoughtful one.
As for getting a computer of my own…I have no place to put it.

[notemotionless]

I don't think I'm paranoid. Though, who wouldn't be paranoid with what's been going on recently.

Simple. Get a laptop. You can put it anywhere you want.

[troublednights]

Well, some are working to end that paranoia and with it...the orchestrator of the chaos.

Don't laptops cost much? Besides- I don't use computers that often...seems a lot of money to part with in order to just send messages over the network. At work I tend to use them on occasion...only information gathering.

[notemotionless]

Ah, yes. It's just a matter of how one plans to bring him down.

Good point, but it's still a good way to keep in touch with a lot of people.

I use it at work too, but not for just information gathering.

[troublednights]

Even if there are few working to that goal- it matters only of skill. Such a ugly thing it all is.

I don't really have anyone to keep in touch with. Other than the masses- but even then it's only me rambling on.

[notemotionless]

[Private | Unhackable]

I may have an idea of how bring to the Joker down. I'm not sure it'll work.

Depends on the rambling. I'm sure it can't be that bad.

[troublednights]

[Private | Unhackable]
So...You are working to catch him? I don't know you but I can't help but to worry of someone doing something foolhardy.

Oh...and it is bad.

[notemotionless]

[Private | Unhackable]

Haa. I wish. Maybe if I find something I can give the information onto someone else. Oh? I'm Mikoshiba Shouta. Don't worry too much, I can handle myself.

I...

Well, I still don't think it is that bad. It might actually be better than some of the others on the network.

[troublednights]

[Private | Unhackable]
Mikoshiba Shouta...?
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A- pleasure to meet you. I am Anti. Just Anti. I hope you can, I'm sure you'd have people who would miss you should something bad happen to you.

As for what is bad...lives are to be ...protected right? However...what if the one with the life- wants to extinguish they're own. That's...what is bad, Shouta-san.

[notemotionless]

[Private | Unhackable]

Maybe at least one person who would miss me. One is more than enough though, right?

I see how that would bad. The question you should be asking yourself Anti is this. Why are you giving up your life?

[troublednights]

[Private | Unhackable] This is somewhat of a paradox Shouta-san. Why should any amount of people missing another matter at all? The end result is still the same. Even though no one would miss me, my passing would be a hindrance...not mourned...I know I should take my own advice but... I've existed with this mental poison for to long.

I haven't given up on my own life yet...I am close. My way of living if you can call it that- is with wearing a mask. I don't have any friends- nor do I go out enough. My life revolves around my work- and the empty time after...is when I feel hollow...

Everyone around me is oblivious.

[notemotionless]

[Private | Unhackable]

You were the one that asked me that someone out here would miss me. So, why are you contradicting yourself? I only answered you with only one person would.

Put yourself out there and go make some friends. It's not hard. It's actually easy when you start talking to other people. Just depends on who you can trust. My own job revolves around a bunch of crazy patients and hard working Doctors. Not much of life if you ask me, no free time since the work load doubled since the break out.

Everyone is oblivious to most people, Anti.

Why do you want to take your own life? If life means that much to you then you should be living it, not wanting to take it away.

[troublednights]

[Private | Unhackable] It’s not as easy. I have the habit of wearing masks Shouta. Everyone only becomes a acquaintance to me- and I can’t help but keep a smile on so people don’t inquire.

I’ve been living it. It’s just a constant downward spiral. But don’t I have a right to take my own life? Is it not my own to do what I will to? The pills don’t work sometimes for me…it eats away like a slow cancer.
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I don’t feel like I’m alive at all.

[notemotionless]

[Private | Unhackable]

Haven't you ever thought to try? Everyone wears masks. It just depends on which masks you choose on that certain day.

You have a right to take your own life. If you have a good enough reason too. Suicide isn't the answer. There are better ways to die. Just don't ask me what those are.

If the pills aren't working, then try something else.

You know what you need?

[troublednights]

[Private | Unhackable]

I have tried.
However I stopped doing that when I realized in my line of work...I don't want people to miss me. It's a dangerous...and has a high enough death-risk.

I suppose you could say because of how I am it's also one of the reasons I took the job at all.