dark
my life is so fast paced that i find it so easy to ignore my problems. i have things and people that make me so happy and fullfilled that i can easily just move on and be positive. Today i spoke to two friends that usually leave me with a smile and they both seemed fucked up. without that security i just ahve to keep thinking and letting my brain slow down and look under the carpet where i swept all that shit.
everything ain't that dandy. there's shit. there's people i'm neglecting and things i'm not doing. there are things i still dont have. i still dont have a band. i dont write enough. there's a million things i've forgotten about. i'm still shitty with drugs. i know people who are crumbling and falling apart. i never visit my bro and sis. i'm not saving enough money. i'm still working the same job that's going a bit stale and shit. even the things that make me happy are far from perfect.
and myself. i'm doing a lot of shit things i dont want to do.
so fuck it. i deserve to be sad tonight. i dont deserve to be able to escape by ringing dave and have him cheer me up or snorting a few lines and going to the party. i'm such a spoilt brat. cos i always know that if i'm sad there are like 4 people who'd go out of their to come over and cheer me up.
i'm just gonna walk around beating on my mind and achieve jack all.
everything ain't that dandy. there's shit. there's people i'm neglecting and things i'm not doing. there are things i still dont have. i still dont have a band. i dont write enough. there's a million things i've forgotten about. i'm still shitty with drugs. i know people who are crumbling and falling apart. i never visit my bro and sis. i'm not saving enough money. i'm still working the same job that's going a bit stale and shit. even the things that make me happy are far from perfect.
and myself. i'm doing a lot of shit things i dont want to do.
so fuck it. i deserve to be sad tonight. i dont deserve to be able to escape by ringing dave and have him cheer me up or snorting a few lines and going to the party. i'm such a spoilt brat. cos i always know that if i'm sad there are like 4 people who'd go out of their to come over and cheer me up.
i'm just gonna walk around beating on my mind and achieve jack all.