a huuuge gap
its been all too long since my last post, mainly because i simply had no desire whatsoever to update. this is how i see it in my mind:
every is just waiting, day after day, for me to update with some kind of exciting news, of which they would definitly have no idea of what im talking about.... then, say, when i update every day with some dumb entry of made up excitement, i feel as if im just being fake, like im just giving people something to read just for the sake of entertainment... orr if i dont write then people also think im incredibly busy and have no time to write, when in reality im just too bored and unmotivated to update my current emotional status so that everyone can say i told you so, why would you want to exchange for a year?...
so its really just a huge psychological game made up by my own soul-
on the other hand, its definitly probable that nobody checks my journal at all, and that i talk to myself when im all alone.
every is just waiting, day after day, for me to update with some kind of exciting news, of which they would definitly have no idea of what im talking about.... then, say, when i update every day with some dumb entry of made up excitement, i feel as if im just being fake, like im just giving people something to read just for the sake of entertainment... orr if i dont write then people also think im incredibly busy and have no time to write, when in reality im just too bored and unmotivated to update my current emotional status so that everyone can say i told you so, why would you want to exchange for a year?...
so its really just a huge psychological game made up by my own soul-
on the other hand, its definitly probable that nobody checks my journal at all, and that i talk to myself when im all alone.