Me? Quite possibly, or maybe I'm just flattering myself (that sounds really pretentious but it was actually meant in a half arsed derogatory way - towards myself).
I'll freely admit that I've been a slack cow. I screwed up twice over and all on the same occasion - my boyfriend AND THEN my friend. I'm sorry I haven't said anything to you before now and I'm sorry for how I've acted.
I have a horrible habit of knowing I've done wrong and in guilt I shy away from it. Am I making any sense? I fucked up, did something dumb and got really upset over it. In turn I stopped talking to people - including yourself - which meant I missed you when you were here. Then instead of just telling you what I'd done, I felt really fecking awful that I...well, I felt I'd let you down. Which I did. And I've still been doing by not saying anything.
I hope that kinda...well..explains what is going on in my head, somewhat. :x And if your post wasn't about me, it doesn't matter - this is still something I need to say to you. And if it is, I only spoke to Tristan. :p
I do love you Miss Mel. I'm just a silly, irresponsible, immature kid.
I'll freely admit that I've been a slack cow. I screwed up twice over and all on the same occasion - my boyfriend AND THEN my friend. I'm sorry I haven't said anything to you before now and I'm sorry for how I've acted.
I have a horrible habit of knowing I've done wrong and in guilt I shy away from it. Am I making any sense? I fucked up, did something dumb and got really upset over it. In turn I stopped talking to people - including yourself - which meant I missed you when you were here. Then instead of just telling you what I'd done, I felt really fecking awful that I...well, I felt I'd let you down. Which I did. And I've still been doing by not saying anything.
I hope that kinda...well..explains what is going on in my head, somewhat. :x And if your post wasn't about me, it doesn't matter - this is still something I need to say to you. And if it is, I only spoke to Tristan. :p
I do love you Miss Mel. I'm just a silly, irresponsible, immature kid.
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