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So it seems like I only get on here when I need to vent. I apologize. I just always need to get out my frustrations and this seems like an avid place to do that.
I'd like to be the person that says that they love school. They love being around everyone. They love furthering their education. But that is furthest from the truth. I often find myself lying in bed thinking about how much I just want to get away. I can't go back home because that's not home anymore. Actually, it hasn't been for quite some time. And that hurts a lot because I don't feel like i have any place to go. And what happens when the people that you want to count on the most just aren't there for you anymore? Where do you turn to? Where do you go? When everything just changes and people put fronts on when they are around you. Or how about this one: when people don't even try to be your friend anymore and half the time aren't even civil. But you used to spend every waking minute with them and not it's like you don't even exsist unless they need something.
Well, I am done with that. I am done with letting people walk all over me because it's not healthy. And if that means that I am not going to have friends or if that means that my college journey needs to come to an end earlier then planned, then so be it. But I am done with being the person that people can take advantage of because they know that I will always be there. Damnit.
I don't feel well today. My alarm didn't go off. I didn't take a shower.
I will be unpleasant today. And you're just going to have to get over it.