i am greatly disgusted at how easy it is to tell when i forgot to take my stomach medicine. as i sit here re chewing the gross "smart choice" meal i ate for dinner, i wonder how i ever made it without the medicine. oh prevacid, how i love you.
if i used conditioner in my hair 2 days in a row, ill get hairline zits. its fucking disgusting. conditioner once a week is IT. thats it. all i can handle without lookin like a pizza faced goon.
did we give away too much or was it right? i just want to go back home and hold you tight, i cant face another crowd and feel this way, oh no. oh no. im falling into every little trap that i can find, reading too much into every single sign. i cant face you with the others all around. oh no. oh no. i need some time to breathe. i can fix whats wrong.
i miss all my cats i had as a kid. killer, samantha, hershey, squirt, little baby, riley, fea, shadow...they are all dead now. samantha the last to go a few months ago. she would have been 16 this year. i miss piggysue and casanova, sunny and syd, sugar and spice, pharoah and turtle, clementine and maxine, larry and lloyd, otto and floyd, scratchy and hoppy, penny and rollo, wilson and mickey, keys and wallet, daisy and daphne.
yes, everyone, those are the names of the pets ive had over the years. many of them. right now i dont have one. i shouldnt have one because im not stable enough, but goddamn, i miss em. i miss having one all my own. cheesy as it sounds, its hard without them.
just look at those eyes.