Still Alive... Still Alive... :D
Totally love that song.
Anywhoo, yes I'm still alive :D! I've been busy in many... many ways. I had a different job for a while. Worked at Joann's, nice place, loved my boss Marci. The woman knew what she was doing.
Let me start from the beginning I guess, last you heard I was still in the state of getting over Nelly. Well I'm over her, and that's done with. I worked at the school for summer camp, not too bad. Really working at the school isn't that bad, working with the children is freakin awesome, some of the people there are really nice. There are always going to be people you don't like at a job and I realized this. Still something felt terribly wrong, like I became physically nauseated something was wrong. The only thing I knew was, "I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!"
So I did, end of summer camp comes around and I'm out of the job :DDDDDD! I look around for a long time and finally I keep hearing in my head. "Well there's always Joann's." Joann's is a fabric store, great place, for people that like fabric. I had so many people asking me, "Why are you here? If you're an artist why aren't you working at Michel's?" Great question, didn't have an answer... ever. I'd come up with lame excuses, like "The patterns inspire me :D." customer: "Riiiiight." I worked there two months shy of a year. Though I met Marci and a lot of other really cool people. Slowly but surely I've been able to stay away from pornography, cause yea, getting to the scary point. So got rid of that, Also got to help out with a meet between my friend Shauna and my boss Marci.
Marci is sadly barren, long story short, doctors weren't helping and Marci had to have her ovaries removed. She couldn't have kids anymore. I know she could have the child artaficially inseminated, problem is, even the doctor said, "You've got about a 3% chance of being able to actually give birth to a child."
Shauna my dear friend from high school, she and her husband really aren't in the position to have kids at the moment. Problem with that is, they had an unexpected pregnancy. She calls me up and says, "How much would you hate me if I had an abortion? Cause I know you're really against it." She sounded worried about a lot of things. I told her reassuringly, "I wont hate you for having an abortion, it's your body I can't tell you what to do with it. I don't like the idea, but you already know that."
We talked for a while, and discussed different ideas, she'd told me she really didn't like the idea of abortion either, but if it really came down to it, she would do it. Then I remembered Marci. Course I didn't want it to sound like I wanted to dump a child in her lap, I wanted it to sound like an opportunity. After talking to our friend Laura, I got up the guts to tell Marci. She told me she'd talk to her husband about it. Several months later, Marci's a mommy of a little boy named Jaden Bay Rice. Cute as a button, was born 5 ibs and 15 ounces. Shauna and her husband are happy that they gave their child to a loving family and are copping well with the adoption.
After all this was said and done, I finally started getting the feeling of. "I need to get away." Again, So I'm back where I am, but I feel content being back. There are a couple things I still don't like but oh freaken well. I get paid, means I got monies for college. Not as easy when you're paying for it yourself. I've been having troubles with my hormones, going to ask my gynecologist of he wont mind giving me a referral for hormone tests see where I am in the balance that I should be at. It's either too weepy, angry, paranoid, too this that and the other thing. I'm sure some of it has to do with stress but who doesn't have that in their family?
I got a new car and it needed repairs, not to mention be legal before my dad's seventh back surgery. Of course we could only take care of so much before that happened. We took care of a couple more things once he was better, but he didn't stay better for long. He got staph in his surgical wound from his stitches. (They're the kind that are supposed to be absorbed into the flesh, problem is they didn't do that they turned into Staph. Not to mention that his entire (I kid you not) left lung was completely covered in pneumonia. His right lung was starting to follow suite. He got all this from the hospital, I of course was freaking out. My parents mortality has been shown to me plenty of times. I just don't know if I can take too much more of it. Mom had a heart attack, and surgery done some time ago, but still not even a year later and this happens to my dad. Things are slowly starting to get better, I just hope they get terribly worse.
Things with my nephew have been ok, He's a special case, and I still want to hunt down his step father :DDDD. He thought it was ok to beat a small child and bite him. My brother wanted to kill him, my mother reminded my brother that being in jail for killing this man wouldn't help darren out any at all. We all still want to beat the man senseless, but we'll live I guess :D. One of those things of, "We need to be extra understanding and patient."
Though things have continually been going up for me so I can't complain too much. I met up with a friend of mine from college, Nat. Whom introduced me to Chidi, nice guy, and cute >D! Chidi told me about an anime meet up every Thursday. Something I really needed, I've gotten out of it, and not to mention my own art. *Sob* So I'm trying to get back some normalcy. It's kind of like that commercial of "If you can teach yourself to drive a car with out smoking, why can't you live your life with out smoking." Same idea for me, but with out the pronz.
Since I understand that I got to such a level of obsession and linked it to my love of anime and drawing I needed to take care of that. Now I just need to keep moving forward, one step at a time. So I guess wish me luck, especially keeping up with my own religion @.@. I believe completely in it, I just you know need to stop avoiding doing that crazy thing called reading my bible XD. I don't think I'd be properly equipped if I didn't do at least a bit more reading that I have. I've gotten from Matthew to.... the beginning of acts. I'd rather not be a bible thumper, which I've found from friends of mine, is usually someone who hasn't read the bible and goes about trying to 'save' people in the completely wrong way. They've trained us for the school I work at to be a bit more considerate of peoples feelings. Craziest thing people don't want to share a religion full of jerks :O! So just keep my family in your prayers, and I'll try and post of new art soon. :D.
Anywhoo, yes I'm still alive :D! I've been busy in many... many ways. I had a different job for a while. Worked at Joann's, nice place, loved my boss Marci. The woman knew what she was doing.
Let me start from the beginning I guess, last you heard I was still in the state of getting over Nelly. Well I'm over her, and that's done with. I worked at the school for summer camp, not too bad. Really working at the school isn't that bad, working with the children is freakin awesome, some of the people there are really nice. There are always going to be people you don't like at a job and I realized this. Still something felt terribly wrong, like I became physically nauseated something was wrong. The only thing I knew was, "I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!"
So I did, end of summer camp comes around and I'm out of the job :DDDDDD! I look around for a long time and finally I keep hearing in my head. "Well there's always Joann's." Joann's is a fabric store, great place, for people that like fabric. I had so many people asking me, "Why are you here? If you're an artist why aren't you working at Michel's?" Great question, didn't have an answer... ever. I'd come up with lame excuses, like "The patterns inspire me :D." customer: "Riiiiight." I worked there two months shy of a year. Though I met Marci and a lot of other really cool people. Slowly but surely I've been able to stay away from pornography, cause yea, getting to the scary point. So got rid of that, Also got to help out with a meet between my friend Shauna and my boss Marci.
Marci is sadly barren, long story short, doctors weren't helping and Marci had to have her ovaries removed. She couldn't have kids anymore. I know she could have the child artaficially inseminated, problem is, even the doctor said, "You've got about a 3% chance of being able to actually give birth to a child."
Shauna my dear friend from high school, she and her husband really aren't in the position to have kids at the moment. Problem with that is, they had an unexpected pregnancy. She calls me up and says, "How much would you hate me if I had an abortion? Cause I know you're really against it." She sounded worried about a lot of things. I told her reassuringly, "I wont hate you for having an abortion, it's your body I can't tell you what to do with it. I don't like the idea, but you already know that."
We talked for a while, and discussed different ideas, she'd told me she really didn't like the idea of abortion either, but if it really came down to it, she would do it. Then I remembered Marci. Course I didn't want it to sound like I wanted to dump a child in her lap, I wanted it to sound like an opportunity. After talking to our friend Laura, I got up the guts to tell Marci. She told me she'd talk to her husband about it. Several months later, Marci's a mommy of a little boy named Jaden Bay Rice. Cute as a button, was born 5 ibs and 15 ounces. Shauna and her husband are happy that they gave their child to a loving family and are copping well with the adoption.
After all this was said and done, I finally started getting the feeling of. "I need to get away." Again, So I'm back where I am, but I feel content being back. There are a couple things I still don't like but oh freaken well. I get paid, means I got monies for college. Not as easy when you're paying for it yourself. I've been having troubles with my hormones, going to ask my gynecologist of he wont mind giving me a referral for hormone tests see where I am in the balance that I should be at. It's either too weepy, angry, paranoid, too this that and the other thing. I'm sure some of it has to do with stress but who doesn't have that in their family?
I got a new car and it needed repairs, not to mention be legal before my dad's seventh back surgery. Of course we could only take care of so much before that happened. We took care of a couple more things once he was better, but he didn't stay better for long. He got staph in his surgical wound from his stitches. (They're the kind that are supposed to be absorbed into the flesh, problem is they didn't do that they turned into Staph. Not to mention that his entire (I kid you not) left lung was completely covered in pneumonia. His right lung was starting to follow suite. He got all this from the hospital, I of course was freaking out. My parents mortality has been shown to me plenty of times. I just don't know if I can take too much more of it. Mom had a heart attack, and surgery done some time ago, but still not even a year later and this happens to my dad. Things are slowly starting to get better, I just hope they get terribly worse.
Things with my nephew have been ok, He's a special case, and I still want to hunt down his step father :DDDD. He thought it was ok to beat a small child and bite him. My brother wanted to kill him, my mother reminded my brother that being in jail for killing this man wouldn't help darren out any at all. We all still want to beat the man senseless, but we'll live I guess :D. One of those things of, "We need to be extra understanding and patient."
Though things have continually been going up for me so I can't complain too much. I met up with a friend of mine from college, Nat. Whom introduced me to Chidi, nice guy, and cute >D! Chidi told me about an anime meet up every Thursday. Something I really needed, I've gotten out of it, and not to mention my own art. *Sob* So I'm trying to get back some normalcy. It's kind of like that commercial of "If you can teach yourself to drive a car with out smoking, why can't you live your life with out smoking." Same idea for me, but with out the pronz.
Since I understand that I got to such a level of obsession and linked it to my love of anime and drawing I needed to take care of that. Now I just need to keep moving forward, one step at a time. So I guess wish me luck, especially keeping up with my own religion @.@. I believe completely in it, I just you know need to stop avoiding doing that crazy thing called reading my bible XD. I don't think I'd be properly equipped if I didn't do at least a bit more reading that I have. I've gotten from Matthew to.... the beginning of acts. I'd rather not be a bible thumper, which I've found from friends of mine, is usually someone who hasn't read the bible and goes about trying to 'save' people in the completely wrong way. They've trained us for the school I work at to be a bit more considerate of peoples feelings. Craziest thing people don't want to share a religion full of jerks :O! So just keep my family in your prayers, and I'll try and post of new art soon. :D.