feel

[trollface]

because just for tonight im going to let you blame me.

can we pretend i ran there instead.
can we pretend i didnt have butterflies.
can we pretend i wasnt a secret.

that we tried our hardest,
felt our hardest.

because right now i feel like it was my fault.

i wont pretend that i was perfect anymore.
i wont pretend that youre the bad guy.
i wont pretend that you didnt know the right thing to say.

because right now the what ifs are eating me alive.

sometimes i dont even care.
soemtimes i cant imagine my life WITH you.
sometimes i would never of gone to toronto.

because right now ill let you play the victim.

blame me for not running when you gave me the chance.
blame me for not knowing what i want to do.
blame me for being scared.

because im starting to forget the bad.
because i want the best.
because i want the worst.
because i wait everyday.