my father
my estranged father has been diagnosed with cancer. a baseball sized tumor in his throat. inoperable.
He also suffers from a type of memory loss (unrelated). He has little short-term memory. He doesn't remember much of the last 10 years. Thinks it's like the early 90's. My mother tells me it's alcohol induced. others tell me it was due to a boating accident. -hit head and lost consciousness in the water. drown a little bit. He did drink a lot. always smoked too.
He remembers me. we've only know each other for about 15 years though. I pretty much stay out of his life. no animosity there. i just didn't feel like being a long lost son or something. DNA doesn't mean that much to me. Anyway, I visited him at the VA hospital saturday. He looks horrible. skinny. trach tube to breath. no talking is possible. He's scared. waking up like that and not knowing what the hell is going on has to suck. I brought him some light reading. a book of like 10,000 quotes. I told him i'd bring him some comedy Cd's to listen to as well. He asked for some blues too.
He reminded me so much of Rico. I don't know how to feel about this.
my mother visited him the day after i did. he told her I came by. that's new. he doesn't tend to remember much of the day before.
He also suffers from a type of memory loss (unrelated). He has little short-term memory. He doesn't remember much of the last 10 years. Thinks it's like the early 90's. My mother tells me it's alcohol induced. others tell me it was due to a boating accident. -hit head and lost consciousness in the water. drown a little bit. He did drink a lot. always smoked too.
He remembers me. we've only know each other for about 15 years though. I pretty much stay out of his life. no animosity there. i just didn't feel like being a long lost son or something. DNA doesn't mean that much to me. Anyway, I visited him at the VA hospital saturday. He looks horrible. skinny. trach tube to breath. no talking is possible. He's scared. waking up like that and not knowing what the hell is going on has to suck. I brought him some light reading. a book of like 10,000 quotes. I told him i'd bring him some comedy Cd's to listen to as well. He asked for some blues too.
He reminded me so much of Rico. I don't know how to feel about this.
my mother visited him the day after i did. he told her I came by. that's new. he doesn't tend to remember much of the day before.