if it's love and we decide that it's forever, no one else could do it better
I hate hate hate hateeee this.
I spent the entire hour session crawling out of my skin and feeling so unbelievably uncomfortable and upset and all I wanted to do was run screaming out of that stupid office.
I was in tears because I felt so terrible in there.
and her stupid face just made me want to scream more. I wanted to claw my skin off. that is honestly how bad it was.
I know, I know, don't give up. It just wasn't a good fit. it is just so discouraging. I shouldn't have to come home and pop a klonopin after. it is something that is supposed to be a fixer not a stressor.
all I want is to go out and have fun and laugh and talk to friends and have honest relationships. instead all i do is become a hermit.
I do not know where to go from here.
Plus also, valentines day is so hard this year. our one year anniversary WOULD be on the 17th.
I can't believe how much has changed in a year. it is nuts.
Can a boy just bring me some flowers please?
My mom is giving me some money for the holiday because she feels bad for me and wants me to go spoil myself. I love that I was raised with retail therapy. :)
I spent the entire hour session crawling out of my skin and feeling so unbelievably uncomfortable and upset and all I wanted to do was run screaming out of that stupid office.
I was in tears because I felt so terrible in there.
and her stupid face just made me want to scream more. I wanted to claw my skin off. that is honestly how bad it was.
I know, I know, don't give up. It just wasn't a good fit. it is just so discouraging. I shouldn't have to come home and pop a klonopin after. it is something that is supposed to be a fixer not a stressor.
all I want is to go out and have fun and laugh and talk to friends and have honest relationships. instead all i do is become a hermit.
I do not know where to go from here.
Plus also, valentines day is so hard this year. our one year anniversary WOULD be on the 17th.
I can't believe how much has changed in a year. it is nuts.
Can a boy just bring me some flowers please?
My mom is giving me some money for the holiday because she feels bad for me and wants me to go spoil myself. I love that I was raised with retail therapy. :)