my weekend of excitement....
so things in the past could be compared to putting my testicles in the path of a closing door that just keeps opening and closing.... but now.... for the sake of the metaphor.... my testicles are comfortable....
i spent almost 60 hours straight with paula this weekend and i cant recall a time that there was a bad moment... she really makes me happy............
THURSDAY
Work.
School.
Shit.
AND THEN.... my usual routine consists of meeting up with emily, amanda, and brandon and any fucking body who wants to go bowling with us on thursday nights starting at 11 and ending whenever.... so i make the usual calls
"Hey B u goin to be there tonight?"
"yeah ill be there"
"Hey Em ill see u there"
Then i make my "im on the highway and i havent talked to paula all day" call... that was awesome... i talked to her for like 15 minutes... asked her how her day was and she told me a few things and i asked her who she was with... and of course she was with zana and all of her friends up at BSU.......... OR SO I THOUGHT>..... when i arrived at white castle... still talking to her... i walk in.... and she walks out of the bathroom... i was shocked.... like literally stunned... i walked out and walked back in to make sure i wasnt dreaming... it was awesome... i love pleasent little surprises like that.... so we fucked around at white castle for a bit... had a few laughs and a few chicken sandwiches... which are usually provided by a girl named paula that works there for free... seems i love TWO paulas in my life!!! so after white castle.... we jumped to the bowling alley to bowl a few games.. paula told me she wasnt able to stay for very long which sucked.. but at least i got to see her... we had fun speaking of the man beast that appeared with brandons twin bro ryan... she looks like a fucked up genetic cross of ms piggy and marilyn manson... anyone who knows her (with the exception of ryan) would probably agree... ::snaps whip:: "Ryans bed time is 10 o clock well only be bowling one game tonight" so another fun incodent was when i called ryan from my cell phone and he stepped out to take the call and had no clue it was me because i disguised my voice and acted like a gangsta' it was hilarious... ive gotten so many people on shit like that... like one time when i was bored i called martín and asked him if "sheila was dea'" it was hilarious.. cause once i hung up i called him back and he started to tell me the story.... poor kid... but thats another story... so paula leaves... and right before she leaves i get a wave of assholism down my spine... i dunno what was wrong... actually i do... and i wrote a big ass entry about it that no one will ever read... but i dunno why it happened there and so suddenly... so after paula left everyone else finished up there games... and then it was down to me martín and emil and i asked martín if he would take emily home so i could bowl a few more games... i had to get what i felt out of me... somehow... 13 games later.... i find myself going home to write in my lj as previously indicated....
FRIDAY
so somehow writing it all out helped me and i began to think more TJish about everything....
went to work.
then i went to pick up paula.... we "played pool".... lol.... actually... no we didnt... we stayed in her dorm room for a while... but those details are between me and her... so fuck off!!!!!! :o) so after our imaginary game of pool we headed to my house... to goto sleep... and thats what we did...
Saturday
We woke up, showered, i got my clothes together for the remainder of the weekend which would be spent in illinois..... so the car trip up there was pleasent no bitching or moaning... only me and trevor making fun of paula for her utter amazement of the vending machines at the rest stop... poor sheltered child... so we get to joliet... and goto nia's B day party which was the whole reason for goin up there... and its held at my aunt evies house... which was awesome... cause thats where i used to live before they moved in... me and rachelle got into a cake fight... ull never know the feeling of frosting goin into ur nostrils until uve tried it... and then u blow ur nose and see snot... and strawberry cake... it was interesting to say the least.... that was awesome... i love rachelle to death... it makes me wonder if she would be in the position she is in now if she would have lived with us for the remainder of her years... cause when we lived on abe street (which i showed to paula on our trip which ill get to later) she lived with us... and i considered her a sister.... i dont remember why exactly she moved out... or any of the details surrounding it.... i just remember that she lived with us... and even though we fought a lot... i didnt want her to go... but i guess shit happens.... and let me tell u... this weekend.... SHIT HAPPENED>... well actually it all happened in the past and we jsut found out about it this weekend... all kinds of SHIT went down... from Mondo which is Nia's father and one of the ganglords in illinois showing up and upsetting rachelle who is too stupid to see she is better off with out him... to all of us finding out that one of my 2nd cousins was raped by her father who blamed it on a brain tumor... fucking sickos.... child molesters and rapists... should suffer the worst amounts of pain before they are finally freed from their bodies to a place of darkness and loneliness.... so anyway... it was fun to see everyone that showed up to Nia's party.... and even though my uncle john who is a drunk and generally looked at as a fuck up and a "waste of flesh and blood" as my mom calls it... a part of me was happy to see him... just because... none of those people there are actually blood related to me... but they are all my family... and who am i to judge his life... hes fucked up badly in the past and most likely will continue to fuck up... but really... its his life... let him fuck it up... the only thing i judge him on is leting his kids seee him the way he is... but really i dont think he knows the effect he has on them... faith as will johnny and david will be scarred for their whole lives... and he has no clue... thats kind of fucked up....
so to escape some of the drama me and paula took a walk... we walked down where i used to play as a kid... the cemetary which was under the cass street bridge where all the crackheads and bums used to hang out.... we saw a bum and saw what appeared to me a bed made out of some tires and some cloths.... but no crackheads (with the exception of my uncle john at the party)... i was thankful for that.... so me and paula walked and talked in the cemetary... looking at all the old tombstones... most were from the mid 1800s to the mid 1900s nothing recent... and then we walked up the other side of the bridge and back around.... and before this trip we also went to visit an old crush of mine... melissa who i found out had a baby!!!! the baby is adorable... and i like her name.... even though i dont remember what it is... i know her middle name is nichol because they thought they were having a boy... and of course... if u know ur having a baby boy ur goin to get that childs name tattooed on ur back right? well thats what the "baby daddy" did... lol... dumb ass!!! when i met him for the thirty seconds that i met him he seemed to be a kewl guy so more power to them if they make it together... i hope they do.......
so after the party died down and stuff... we went to chicken and spice where paula tried her first italian beef sandwich... poor poor sheltered child.. she enjoyed it... as did i... cause i finsihed it off for her... as well as my 4 chicken chunks... which is the whole reason i live,.,, i love those fucking things.... after we ate i showed her the house on washington street... the one on abe street.... where johnny and dawn used to live before they divorced (dawn is uncle john's (the crackhead) wife) and i showerd her my grandmas house before she died.. and pieces of my old paper route... it was kewl...
Saturday night ended with us bowling at some redneck bowling alley where these three 12 year old were getting my "im a jealous boyfriend look"... not really but they were looking at paula.... but lol... where most guys see thatas bad... i kind of like... that way i can flip them off... smile... and then kiss her... which id never do the flipping off part to a total stranger.... well.... maybe not... but it would be kewl nonetheless..... after bowling we decided we would stay with my crazy ass aunt rosemary where we all ate tomolas (sp?) again Paula being the sheltered little white girl that she is... never had them before.... but she seemed to like them..... nothing too much exciting happened there.... cause we were all shitfaced tired and called it a night... right after the food....
SUNDAY
WAKE UP! BRUSH UR TEETH AND PILE ON THE MAKE UP... something something...... so once we woke up we headed to the golden coral... and yes.... YOU GUESSED IT>>>> Paula had never been there before... JESUS CHRSIT DOES SHE LIVE IN A FUCKING CLOSET? :o) im getting hit for all these side comments i know i am!!!! so after i ate four plates... some ice cream one more plat and some more ice cream... we headed out the door... no wait.... everyone except me..... because i waited on paula who took like 6 days in the bathrrom! not really... but i was the only one who waited on her... bastards!!!!! so after that... um.... we went to rachells and then evelyn's... nothing too excting... except evelyn's bird that calls everyone a crack whore shit on the floor.... and attacked trevor... lol.... after that we went to wilmington... number one reason to visit my grandpa's tombstone... and number two reason... to let paula experience a banana shake from the launching pad which is the finest fucking thing ull ever taste in ur life... let me tewll ya...
So the car ride home was awesome.. i slept on and off as did paula.... and at one point they all urinated at a gas station and i didnt need to go just then... but maybe 15 minutes later i ot hit hard with a "i need to piss" and my mom being the kind person she is... pulled over to let me piss along side the van... and as i started she put it in drive and started rolling away... THANKS>.... love ya much... ::Cough cough:: BITCH... not really.... :o) so once i got back in.. me and paula held hands... until i fell asleep... and when i woke up she was facing the opposite direction in her seat... and we werent holding hands anymore... so i flipped over and started caressing her face and hair and stuff... and we kissed a bit... which is always good..... helps with the skin.... maybe... i dunno.... but it is good for the soul... at least a with her it is... unless shes satan wrapped in a beautiful girls body and sent to destroy me... which would explain that "spider bite" that is growing on the back of her neck.... my thought is that it is the horn of the devil... she cant keep it in anymore.... mwahahahahahaha..... so when we got hjome from the car ride... paula met my moms crazy ass friend.... and her cute son who turned into a wimp over night... the little fucker!!! after we ate some steak and i took a shower... we headed for muncie... let me tell u there are many great things in the world... and making out... in the car... while driving... is one of them... danger excitement... and the obvious sexual arrousal... wow... i feel like fucking james bond..... someone shoot me cause this is bliss.... so once we get to BSU we throw my clothes in the dryer so i have something work in tomrrow... and then we goto bed.... i slept the whole night through... but she was woke up by her roomates boyfriend/ fuck buddy ( i dunno what their title is) at like 4 in the morning.... which none of this info is really pertinant to anything... but this is LJ right... u have to be specific about absolutely nothing... and be happy or sad about it.... thus u have a journal..... right/? of course right!!!! so we went to bed... i woke up which leaves us at
MONDAY
.... and guess how that started off...... yep.... work!!!!!! c'est le vie non? and then school!!!!!! and then i went up to emilys riginally to find a bowling partner... but then we decided to watch scarface cause she had some shit to work on and really... i dont wanna spend the money as well as the fact i think im getting sick right now which isnt good at all.... fucking bastards... u know its the government trying to hold me down cause im a native from caucasia! but anywho... we watched... that for a while.. then B came over and finished watching with us... which was kewl.. i like just haging out with the kids... i love them to death!!!! and now im home and about to goto sleep.....
"When your done with your stories... please say 'The End'"
so i guess i could say some sweet things in here right now... but i took a shot of some medicing and my eyes are getting heavy.... so ill wrap it up.... I love paula... and the last year has been a struggle... and i know struggle is in the future... but as long as its her that im struggling to keep... at least i know ill try.... at least i know i have something to live for and to look forward too.... good night and good job if u made it all the way to the bottom here..... im proud of u!!!!
PS paula and i spent close to 60 hours together straight... and it was soo hard for me to leave monday morning... damn nazis at work!!!!
i spent almost 60 hours straight with paula this weekend and i cant recall a time that there was a bad moment... she really makes me happy............
THURSDAY
Work.
School.
Shit.
AND THEN.... my usual routine consists of meeting up with emily, amanda, and brandon and any fucking body who wants to go bowling with us on thursday nights starting at 11 and ending whenever.... so i make the usual calls
"Hey B u goin to be there tonight?"
"yeah ill be there"
"Hey Em ill see u there"
Then i make my "im on the highway and i havent talked to paula all day" call... that was awesome... i talked to her for like 15 minutes... asked her how her day was and she told me a few things and i asked her who she was with... and of course she was with zana and all of her friends up at BSU.......... OR SO I THOUGHT>..... when i arrived at white castle... still talking to her... i walk in.... and she walks out of the bathroom... i was shocked.... like literally stunned... i walked out and walked back in to make sure i wasnt dreaming... it was awesome... i love pleasent little surprises like that.... so we fucked around at white castle for a bit... had a few laughs and a few chicken sandwiches... which are usually provided by a girl named paula that works there for free... seems i love TWO paulas in my life!!! so after white castle.... we jumped to the bowling alley to bowl a few games.. paula told me she wasnt able to stay for very long which sucked.. but at least i got to see her... we had fun speaking of the man beast that appeared with brandons twin bro ryan... she looks like a fucked up genetic cross of ms piggy and marilyn manson... anyone who knows her (with the exception of ryan) would probably agree... ::snaps whip:: "Ryans bed time is 10 o clock well only be bowling one game tonight" so another fun incodent was when i called ryan from my cell phone and he stepped out to take the call and had no clue it was me because i disguised my voice and acted like a gangsta' it was hilarious... ive gotten so many people on shit like that... like one time when i was bored i called martín and asked him if "sheila was dea'" it was hilarious.. cause once i hung up i called him back and he started to tell me the story.... poor kid... but thats another story... so paula leaves... and right before she leaves i get a wave of assholism down my spine... i dunno what was wrong... actually i do... and i wrote a big ass entry about it that no one will ever read... but i dunno why it happened there and so suddenly... so after paula left everyone else finished up there games... and then it was down to me martín and emil and i asked martín if he would take emily home so i could bowl a few more games... i had to get what i felt out of me... somehow... 13 games later.... i find myself going home to write in my lj as previously indicated....
FRIDAY
so somehow writing it all out helped me and i began to think more TJish about everything....
went to work.
then i went to pick up paula.... we "played pool".... lol.... actually... no we didnt... we stayed in her dorm room for a while... but those details are between me and her... so fuck off!!!!!! :o) so after our imaginary game of pool we headed to my house... to goto sleep... and thats what we did...
Saturday
We woke up, showered, i got my clothes together for the remainder of the weekend which would be spent in illinois..... so the car trip up there was pleasent no bitching or moaning... only me and trevor making fun of paula for her utter amazement of the vending machines at the rest stop... poor sheltered child... so we get to joliet... and goto nia's B day party which was the whole reason for goin up there... and its held at my aunt evies house... which was awesome... cause thats where i used to live before they moved in... me and rachelle got into a cake fight... ull never know the feeling of frosting goin into ur nostrils until uve tried it... and then u blow ur nose and see snot... and strawberry cake... it was interesting to say the least.... that was awesome... i love rachelle to death... it makes me wonder if she would be in the position she is in now if she would have lived with us for the remainder of her years... cause when we lived on abe street (which i showed to paula on our trip which ill get to later) she lived with us... and i considered her a sister.... i dont remember why exactly she moved out... or any of the details surrounding it.... i just remember that she lived with us... and even though we fought a lot... i didnt want her to go... but i guess shit happens.... and let me tell u... this weekend.... SHIT HAPPENED>... well actually it all happened in the past and we jsut found out about it this weekend... all kinds of SHIT went down... from Mondo which is Nia's father and one of the ganglords in illinois showing up and upsetting rachelle who is too stupid to see she is better off with out him... to all of us finding out that one of my 2nd cousins was raped by her father who blamed it on a brain tumor... fucking sickos.... child molesters and rapists... should suffer the worst amounts of pain before they are finally freed from their bodies to a place of darkness and loneliness.... so anyway... it was fun to see everyone that showed up to Nia's party.... and even though my uncle john who is a drunk and generally looked at as a fuck up and a "waste of flesh and blood" as my mom calls it... a part of me was happy to see him... just because... none of those people there are actually blood related to me... but they are all my family... and who am i to judge his life... hes fucked up badly in the past and most likely will continue to fuck up... but really... its his life... let him fuck it up... the only thing i judge him on is leting his kids seee him the way he is... but really i dont think he knows the effect he has on them... faith as will johnny and david will be scarred for their whole lives... and he has no clue... thats kind of fucked up....
so to escape some of the drama me and paula took a walk... we walked down where i used to play as a kid... the cemetary which was under the cass street bridge where all the crackheads and bums used to hang out.... we saw a bum and saw what appeared to me a bed made out of some tires and some cloths.... but no crackheads (with the exception of my uncle john at the party)... i was thankful for that.... so me and paula walked and talked in the cemetary... looking at all the old tombstones... most were from the mid 1800s to the mid 1900s nothing recent... and then we walked up the other side of the bridge and back around.... and before this trip we also went to visit an old crush of mine... melissa who i found out had a baby!!!! the baby is adorable... and i like her name.... even though i dont remember what it is... i know her middle name is nichol because they thought they were having a boy... and of course... if u know ur having a baby boy ur goin to get that childs name tattooed on ur back right? well thats what the "baby daddy" did... lol... dumb ass!!! when i met him for the thirty seconds that i met him he seemed to be a kewl guy so more power to them if they make it together... i hope they do.......
so after the party died down and stuff... we went to chicken and spice where paula tried her first italian beef sandwich... poor poor sheltered child.. she enjoyed it... as did i... cause i finsihed it off for her... as well as my 4 chicken chunks... which is the whole reason i live,.,, i love those fucking things.... after we ate i showed her the house on washington street... the one on abe street.... where johnny and dawn used to live before they divorced (dawn is uncle john's (the crackhead) wife) and i showerd her my grandmas house before she died.. and pieces of my old paper route... it was kewl...
Saturday night ended with us bowling at some redneck bowling alley where these three 12 year old were getting my "im a jealous boyfriend look"... not really but they were looking at paula.... but lol... where most guys see thatas bad... i kind of like... that way i can flip them off... smile... and then kiss her... which id never do the flipping off part to a total stranger.... well.... maybe not... but it would be kewl nonetheless..... after bowling we decided we would stay with my crazy ass aunt rosemary where we all ate tomolas (sp?) again Paula being the sheltered little white girl that she is... never had them before.... but she seemed to like them..... nothing too much exciting happened there.... cause we were all shitfaced tired and called it a night... right after the food....
SUNDAY
WAKE UP! BRUSH UR TEETH AND PILE ON THE MAKE UP... something something...... so once we woke up we headed to the golden coral... and yes.... YOU GUESSED IT>>>> Paula had never been there before... JESUS CHRSIT DOES SHE LIVE IN A FUCKING CLOSET? :o) im getting hit for all these side comments i know i am!!!! so after i ate four plates... some ice cream one more plat and some more ice cream... we headed out the door... no wait.... everyone except me..... because i waited on paula who took like 6 days in the bathrrom! not really... but i was the only one who waited on her... bastards!!!!! so after that... um.... we went to rachells and then evelyn's... nothing too excting... except evelyn's bird that calls everyone a crack whore shit on the floor.... and attacked trevor... lol.... after that we went to wilmington... number one reason to visit my grandpa's tombstone... and number two reason... to let paula experience a banana shake from the launching pad which is the finest fucking thing ull ever taste in ur life... let me tewll ya...
So the car ride home was awesome.. i slept on and off as did paula.... and at one point they all urinated at a gas station and i didnt need to go just then... but maybe 15 minutes later i ot hit hard with a "i need to piss" and my mom being the kind person she is... pulled over to let me piss along side the van... and as i started she put it in drive and started rolling away... THANKS>.... love ya much... ::Cough cough:: BITCH... not really.... :o) so once i got back in.. me and paula held hands... until i fell asleep... and when i woke up she was facing the opposite direction in her seat... and we werent holding hands anymore... so i flipped over and started caressing her face and hair and stuff... and we kissed a bit... which is always good..... helps with the skin.... maybe... i dunno.... but it is good for the soul... at least a with her it is... unless shes satan wrapped in a beautiful girls body and sent to destroy me... which would explain that "spider bite" that is growing on the back of her neck.... my thought is that it is the horn of the devil... she cant keep it in anymore.... mwahahahahahaha..... so when we got hjome from the car ride... paula met my moms crazy ass friend.... and her cute son who turned into a wimp over night... the little fucker!!! after we ate some steak and i took a shower... we headed for muncie... let me tell u there are many great things in the world... and making out... in the car... while driving... is one of them... danger excitement... and the obvious sexual arrousal... wow... i feel like fucking james bond..... someone shoot me cause this is bliss.... so once we get to BSU we throw my clothes in the dryer so i have something work in tomrrow... and then we goto bed.... i slept the whole night through... but she was woke up by her roomates boyfriend/ fuck buddy ( i dunno what their title is) at like 4 in the morning.... which none of this info is really pertinant to anything... but this is LJ right... u have to be specific about absolutely nothing... and be happy or sad about it.... thus u have a journal..... right/? of course right!!!! so we went to bed... i woke up which leaves us at
MONDAY
.... and guess how that started off...... yep.... work!!!!!! c'est le vie non? and then school!!!!!! and then i went up to emilys riginally to find a bowling partner... but then we decided to watch scarface cause she had some shit to work on and really... i dont wanna spend the money as well as the fact i think im getting sick right now which isnt good at all.... fucking bastards... u know its the government trying to hold me down cause im a native from caucasia! but anywho... we watched... that for a while.. then B came over and finished watching with us... which was kewl.. i like just haging out with the kids... i love them to death!!!! and now im home and about to goto sleep.....
"When your done with your stories... please say 'The End'"
so i guess i could say some sweet things in here right now... but i took a shot of some medicing and my eyes are getting heavy.... so ill wrap it up.... I love paula... and the last year has been a struggle... and i know struggle is in the future... but as long as its her that im struggling to keep... at least i know ill try.... at least i know i have something to live for and to look forward too.... good night and good job if u made it all the way to the bottom here..... im proud of u!!!!
PS paula and i spent close to 60 hours together straight... and it was soo hard for me to leave monday morning... damn nazis at work!!!!