Dont fight dont argue just give me the chance to say that im sorry just let me love you
Yeah the subject is part of the chorus line for one of shania twains new songs i really love it, its got a good message behind it. Shania is movin back onto my good side. So it was midterms week i think i did ok well except for the chem midterm which im pretty sure i got like a total f on o well its only chemistry. Hmm i dont know ive been pondering alot latley which as you all know is never a good thing. Ive been thinking about college alot i dont know im just not sure one if i even want to go or if i jsut want to take a year off or if i do go what i want to major in i mean i still love music but i dont know i just feel like i want to do somthing with cars though its not a presigious career choice and my dad was already like you cant become a mechanic and i was like why not i love working on cars why not make it my full time job hmm i dont know yeah i dont know latley i feel my father is being to controling i mean dont get me wrong i love the guy he is my dad and just an awsome guy (when he is not being a total ass) but i dont know he just wont let me make my own descions he feels the need to interfere with everything i try to do as far as money and i just want to be like its my fuckin money i make it i save it ill spend it i dont see you helping me out all that often christ i owe my bosses like 600 bucks ive been working for them for free for months now. AHHHHH and then i really wanted to buy the truck forsale at our shop and he said no and i was like ahhh why and he was like i dont want you spending all your money on cars and as my boss put it quite clearly "listen kid its not your dads money you gotta make your own descions in life ive never seen him in here paying your bills" and i knew he was right he always is but all i could say was i know mike i know but he rules the roost. So i dont know i do need to make some descions about my cars i really miss my truck i know you all dont understand what cars mean to me but it actually hurts me not to drive my truck it really is like a part of me a big part and it kills me to just sit there i jsut wanna get behind the wheel and have it be like the summer again and go cruisin up route 9 with the music blaring and my arm out the window taping on the side heading up to me auntie jackie or going to see my grandma :( But i keep a picture of my truck above the visor in car so i can always look at it sry im very sentimental towords my truck i know im a big geek. O so the other day i was out pumping gas and it was so cold i thought i had frost bight on my feet and i was watching all the little gay boys in their ford focuses get stuck in the snow over at willands because they dont plow and i came in and was like o another little gay boy gut stuck donna and a wicked good conversasion preceeded about gay marriage and stuff it was very cool that woman sometimes amazes me to no end both her and mike. O that same night i was so cold they closed down an hour early just for me so me and donna quickly pulled everything in and turned off all the outside lights and mike went out for beer with richard and me and donna hung out in the office for another hour talking all about divorce and stuff it was just nice i work with such great people. Donna was in my step moms doctors office and she was talking to laurie and laurie was like you know donna ross really loves his job and he cant stop raving over you and donna was like good im so glad even if he didnt work there he would still be hanging out there which when i thought about it is true even on my days off i still go down to shoot the shit with mike like on sundays when i know he is in doing big jobs like trannys and stuff i go in and just say hi and i dont know they make me so proud and happy to work there i hope someday if im a mechanic i can be half the mechanic mike is. So what else besides work umm opera is going i hate it but o well im commited to it. Umm what else o lately ive met some really cool guys online im sure you know who you are :) what else o my auntie jackie lost 3 1/2 pounds i was very proud of her o one of my cousins is getting married this summer he is the first of all the grandchildren to get married so it should be exciting.umm what else o im back workin at the gas station more because the guy they have pumping gas fulltime had surgery i was hoping he was gonna die on the table because he is hording most of the hours and when the sumemr hits im going to want to be there everyday again thats my big source of income. OK wow this is a long one so ok i'll end it with this I LOVE LYNSEY WENTWORTH.