Hey Journal...Did u miss me?
Hey Journal sorry for neglecting you yet again on the account of me havin a life, sorry journal.But anyone...So the summer is wrapping up for me. School is right around the corner for me. I'm leavin for a road trip to Cali w/ Kaylah and her mom on Aug. 4th..and won't be back til Aug. 16th, then I have one day before move in day which is the 18th. For those of you who don't know, I'm going to EIU..looking forward to it. But as summer is winding down I'm really starting to notice things that I'm sure I will miss. Basically the only reason I'm not looking forward to leavin is cuz of Tyler...Hes basically the only reason I have to come back really, besides seein my fam. But right now I'm jus concentrating on movin out and gettin away from them lol. Like I'm excited to live on my own..and not have my cloths and shit just randomly turn up missing when I need them most...humm..because one of my sisters "barrowed it" w/ out asking...really gets on my nerves, and then my mom checking up on me...like i have a ton of freedom, not complaining there, just idk my rents are out of town this week and left me and mer home, she calls like twice a day to see if the house has burned down yet. lol. Its annoying..Kathe did u let out the dog? did you feed the pets? Did u turn out the lights before bed?...I'm like dam, I can feed the freakin pets, and turn out lights, I'm 18, leave me alone!...REALLY fucking ANNOYING! Ok sorry I'm done venting about that. But Yeah I'm most concerned about leavin Ty really...cuz I have no clue what to expect. Most parts of me think its not going to work. Based on his freedom that he barley has right now...I've been getting frustrated w/ it lately...cuz I'm like dam he can't even come over cuz of some stupid reason and I always think...man if he can't even do that what makes me think he can come visit me?...Idk and I refuse to be one of those college students that comes home every weekend and misses out on meeting new ppl... Idk I jus want him to have the freedom of a college student, and I know thats not gonna happen...But then other parts of me think that what we have can last...but its jus so hard cuz of the age diff. BLAH...I don't really like thinking about it. I've never really had to try and make a relationship work, in the past it jus came natural....YEAH I"M JUS GONNA WING IT...Humm...So I'm done w/ my job on Thurs. Wahoo...But I need more money!!! Anywho I dont feel like writting anymore. Later.