A Real Update? ..Blah.
Humm...So a lot has happened to me in the last week that I just neglect to mention in here because..well I think everyone somewhat sensors what they are actually thinking when they write in here since everyone in the world can read it...and to some ppl what you say in here pisses them off or hurts them or wantnot...blah..besides I already have one of my entries on someones frig lol. Anywho so I guess in the love department I've been pretty confused for a while. Idk me and Justin started goin back out like 2 weeks ago and I was all excited and I thought things would be great, but really in 2 weeks I only saw him twice in person which blows and i'd talk to him everynight after he got off work at like 10:30 or 11. And we jus talked about the same ol things..how was school? work? blah...Yeah Idk and then track is starting and I will have even less time. And...also when Justin and I were broken up I kinda started talkin to someone but didn't really think much of it, but then when Justin and I started goin back out, this other person and I started talkin a lot more and hes really nice and I like what I see so far...blah..and I felt guilty for even thinking about thinking about this other guy in kind of a lil more than friends way. And I don't think it helps me seeing him several times a day and not seeing justin at all..and we live in the same town. Idk so friday night I went over to justin's and I decided to break things off. It was hard..but we have been dating for like a year and a half or 2 years on and off and I jus feel like its time for something new. I'm jus lookin for somethin diff. I guess. Idk I feel horrible because Justin didn't take this very well at all. And I hate that hes hurting but in the end I feel its for the best. This relationship has gone on too long, its always kinda had its problems. It shouldn't be so hard. Plus I guess its jus kinda hard dating someone whose out of high school that you never see. Blah...I feel so bad about all this, But i jus feel that this is what I need right now. If I'm not w/ someone new, I jus wanna be me and be the best me I can be, and have fun along the way. But Justin if you read this, I'm sorry for hurting you, and I know you don't really understand. I guess this is jus what I feel I need. But I'll always be there for yea if you ever need someone to talk to.
Well...anywho Saturday I woke up and went to the Girls Dance Competition in Tuscola. It was pretty cool but my ass hurt like a mother! from the damn bleachers. Hip Hop dancing is f'n awesome, specially Bloomington..prolly cuz they had a bunch of black girls on their team lol. But yeah that was fun, then I went home and napped then woke up and got ready to go to Brent's with Kenbob. We got there about 9:30 and their was quite a few ppl there. By about 12 there was like 30 ppl there. It was awesome. I was a good girl though, I didn't really drink at all, jus sipped shit, not enough to have an effect one me. But it was kinda nice, seein everything from the other side. Usually I'm like shot time! Hellz yeah! and I'm all party hardy and shit, but after last weekend I decided I didn't wanna do that for a while. I actually liked being in control. But yeah it was a lil weird me taking care of everyone else, and cleaning up everyone else's mess when they'd knock shit over or track in mud and shit. I'm ussually the one makin a fool out of myself. Idk though, I'm thinkin I might make more of an effort to be Sober Sally instead of makin a fool of myself, although it can be very fun. lol. But yeah I had a lot of fun w/ the guys. David is freakin hilarious. Tyler was wasted and I took care of him most of the night. I doubt he will remember the whole night or anything he said to me. But guess thats how drunken nights go. Jus he was WAY too drunk. humm..oh yeah kenbob was pullin Haus around my his belt and let go and Hau bit it so bad it was hilarious and his spiked Gatorade went EVERYWHERE, but I must say, it was hilarious...But poor Brent...I think he was about to erupt later on in the night...there was an aweful lot of mud on the white carpet.
Humm...and that brings us to sunday..I went to church came home and watched the Illini game, then talked on the phone, then made Kaylah's Video shes been buggin me about...then got on here...yeah basically I have done a whole lot of nothing today. I was supposed to hang out w. someone and he was supposed to call but I'm sure he was too wasted to remember lol.So thats niiice. And...I'm spent, check yea later journal.
Well...anywho Saturday I woke up and went to the Girls Dance Competition in Tuscola. It was pretty cool but my ass hurt like a mother! from the damn bleachers. Hip Hop dancing is f'n awesome, specially Bloomington..prolly cuz they had a bunch of black girls on their team lol. But yeah that was fun, then I went home and napped then woke up and got ready to go to Brent's with Kenbob. We got there about 9:30 and their was quite a few ppl there. By about 12 there was like 30 ppl there. It was awesome. I was a good girl though, I didn't really drink at all, jus sipped shit, not enough to have an effect one me. But it was kinda nice, seein everything from the other side. Usually I'm like shot time! Hellz yeah! and I'm all party hardy and shit, but after last weekend I decided I didn't wanna do that for a while. I actually liked being in control. But yeah it was a lil weird me taking care of everyone else, and cleaning up everyone else's mess when they'd knock shit over or track in mud and shit. I'm ussually the one makin a fool out of myself. Idk though, I'm thinkin I might make more of an effort to be Sober Sally instead of makin a fool of myself, although it can be very fun. lol. But yeah I had a lot of fun w/ the guys. David is freakin hilarious. Tyler was wasted and I took care of him most of the night. I doubt he will remember the whole night or anything he said to me. But guess thats how drunken nights go. Jus he was WAY too drunk. humm..oh yeah kenbob was pullin Haus around my his belt and let go and Hau bit it so bad it was hilarious and his spiked Gatorade went EVERYWHERE, but I must say, it was hilarious...But poor Brent...I think he was about to erupt later on in the night...there was an aweful lot of mud on the white carpet.
Humm...and that brings us to sunday..I went to church came home and watched the Illini game, then talked on the phone, then made Kaylah's Video shes been buggin me about...then got on here...yeah basically I have done a whole lot of nothing today. I was supposed to hang out w. someone and he was supposed to call but I'm sure he was too wasted to remember lol.So thats niiice. And...I'm spent, check yea later journal.