i dont know what to do anymore

[trixy7]

i wish he would have told me he cheated on me, or said he wasnt attracted to me anymore, or said i was crazy. at least then i could hate him for it. he wouldnt tell me he loved me for like two weeks, and then when he breaks up with me he tells me that he'll always love me. what the hell am i supposed to say. i want to be able to never speak to him again, to go out to parties and hook up with other people, but i cant, even though we are not together, i would still feel like im cheating on him, even the thought of kissing another person disgusts me.

i dont know where to go, i was leaving los angelos early to see him, and wating for him to go back to boston, he is supposed to pick me up at the airport, and since my mom is gone and my car is broken i was supposed to stay at his house a lot while i was in florida. what the hell am i supposed to do now? i want to go to florida and see my friends, but i know it will hurt being there and not seeing him,

2 and a half years and its over with a phone call.