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you aren't him, you never will be...that's why i love you.
you can't ever turn into what he is now, you're already over that, and looking forward...you are my greatest secret, my most treasured...and you told me so recently that i'm yours. i suppose that this...us...what we're doing...people might say it was wrong, sick and twisted...but no, i don't think it can be.
you see right through the face i paint on every day; you look as deep as you have to to find me....and i love you, beyond all comprehension and belief and meaning. it hasn't even hit me, yet, all of this...but if i had known how you felt some three years ago, everything could have been done differently-it might have been better for us both. i want to tell everyone how great you are-i want to scream it in he halls and yell in the cafeteria. i WANT people to know but at the same time you are the best lie i have ever told and the most beautiful game of pretend i ever imagined...i never thought that something so small, so nonchalant could give way to this landslide of affection. i wish i had known earlier what it was like to be cuddled in your arms, away fron the world, just you and i and our meaningful conversation and the level of comfort and understanding...so please don't ever tell, don;t open that mouth of yours. i love things the way they are, i like how it is. i like that no one knows-no one....and i never, ever want them to....your hopefully expectant face, gazing at me through the hall each morning is what keeps me going to school...because without you i'd think there would be no real reason...your silly texts from a different classroom...your notes slipped into my bag or my locker...you are making my senior year better than i possibly imagined...i don't know what this is-if it's for the long run or something sweet just for now, but i guess what you said is true...forever isn't so long with the right person. maybe it's you?? maybe i'm yours?? i hope so...after all, i guess no one has ever gone to lengths such as these for someone like me...but you have. and i...well i think i love you for it...i love yyou for nt being jake, for being nothing like him...i love you for trying to fix me instead of break me...and i guess only time can tell what will happen...but thank you. i love you.
you can't ever turn into what he is now, you're already over that, and looking forward...you are my greatest secret, my most treasured...and you told me so recently that i'm yours. i suppose that this...us...what we're doing...people might say it was wrong, sick and twisted...but no, i don't think it can be.
you see right through the face i paint on every day; you look as deep as you have to to find me....and i love you, beyond all comprehension and belief and meaning. it hasn't even hit me, yet, all of this...but if i had known how you felt some three years ago, everything could have been done differently-it might have been better for us both. i want to tell everyone how great you are-i want to scream it in he halls and yell in the cafeteria. i WANT people to know but at the same time you are the best lie i have ever told and the most beautiful game of pretend i ever imagined...i never thought that something so small, so nonchalant could give way to this landslide of affection. i wish i had known earlier what it was like to be cuddled in your arms, away fron the world, just you and i and our meaningful conversation and the level of comfort and understanding...so please don't ever tell, don;t open that mouth of yours. i love things the way they are, i like how it is. i like that no one knows-no one....and i never, ever want them to....your hopefully expectant face, gazing at me through the hall each morning is what keeps me going to school...because without you i'd think there would be no real reason...your silly texts from a different classroom...your notes slipped into my bag or my locker...you are making my senior year better than i possibly imagined...i don't know what this is-if it's for the long run or something sweet just for now, but i guess what you said is true...forever isn't so long with the right person. maybe it's you?? maybe i'm yours?? i hope so...after all, i guess no one has ever gone to lengths such as these for someone like me...but you have. and i...well i think i love you for it...i love yyou for nt being jake, for being nothing like him...i love you for trying to fix me instead of break me...and i guess only time can tell what will happen...but thank you. i love you.