More Ugh!
So my plans to update more are clearly not going well. I read my live journal daily but i can't brind myself to ramble on. So here is what is new/going on.
December 26 I picked Carolynn up from the airport and we had a fantastic time together. My parents love her. Everyone in my family can see we are head over heels in love and they comment how they've never seen me this happy. Ever. So that's good. She went home Jan 4 but we now have solid plans to have her moved here June 22.
When Dad went back to work on Jan 5 he was told he'd been down sized. He hasn't had a job since then and it's weighing heavy on me.
Work is fine, i still hate it and dread getting up in the morning but it's a job and we did finally get our raise. Also i've been promoted...sorta...to a higher level secretary so even more money. Which is good since my taxes came backwith me owing 1200 bucks.
My grandfather died on the 28th of Feb of a massive heart attack on top of everything.
So basically i've been under a huge umbrella of stress since Jan 1. Not a good way to start the year.
I'm stressed about Carolynn moving, and i miss her so much. Long distance is So hard.
I'm stressed about money and making sure everything is paid.
I'm stressed over my dad and how much stress he's under, his father passing and having no job. They're not sure if they'll be able to keep the house or what' they'll do if they need to sell it.
Everything feels like it's kicking me in the stomach and i can't get up for air. Carolynn's been great she tries to remind me her being away is only until june and then she'll be here to at least comfort me when i'm feeling so down. But that's the thing, lately i feel So down! Like really what's the point? Andi hate that feeling.
I'm trying to stay positive and focused but it's so hard.
December 26 I picked Carolynn up from the airport and we had a fantastic time together. My parents love her. Everyone in my family can see we are head over heels in love and they comment how they've never seen me this happy. Ever. So that's good. She went home Jan 4 but we now have solid plans to have her moved here June 22.
When Dad went back to work on Jan 5 he was told he'd been down sized. He hasn't had a job since then and it's weighing heavy on me.
Work is fine, i still hate it and dread getting up in the morning but it's a job and we did finally get our raise. Also i've been promoted...sorta...to a higher level secretary so even more money. Which is good since my taxes came backwith me owing 1200 bucks.
My grandfather died on the 28th of Feb of a massive heart attack on top of everything.
So basically i've been under a huge umbrella of stress since Jan 1. Not a good way to start the year.
I'm stressed about Carolynn moving, and i miss her so much. Long distance is So hard.
I'm stressed about money and making sure everything is paid.
I'm stressed over my dad and how much stress he's under, his father passing and having no job. They're not sure if they'll be able to keep the house or what' they'll do if they need to sell it.
Everything feels like it's kicking me in the stomach and i can't get up for air. Carolynn's been great she tries to remind me her being away is only until june and then she'll be here to at least comfort me when i'm feeling so down. But that's the thing, lately i feel So down! Like really what's the point? Andi hate that feeling.
I'm trying to stay positive and focused but it's so hard.