Jul 11, 2008 23:10
"Why dont you stay
Im down on my knees
Im so tired of being lonely
Dont I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one think you should know
We dont have to live this way
Baby why dont you stay
I cant take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I cant waste another minute
After all that I put in it
IVE GIVEN YOU MY BEST
WHY DOES SHE GET THE BEST OF YOU
Next time you find
You want to leave her bed
for mine
Baby why dont you stay"
"Take your records take your freedom
TAKE YOUR MEMORIES I DONT NEED THEM
But you'll think of me
Take your cap and leave my sweater
because we have nothing left to weather
but you'll think of me"
It hurts to let go, let completely go of the one who you love the most. Its so hard to walk away completely when you heart screams no and to hold on. My stupid heart wants to hang on for dear life hoping one day that she will come back and I can have that happiness back.
I turn my back on that heart.
But I am done listening to my heart. I will now listen to my head. The sensible part that says that I have to do this. I have to push her out of my life, of my head, and of me to be ok to really be ok. It hurts too much. It is just too hard. Its just too much.
So with tears pour down my cheeks and with as much pain and heartache as I can barely take it(cuz its so hard not to crack, its so hard not to give in and keep getting crushed, it is killing me, KILLING ME, to do this). But I must pick up my broken self and walk away.
I will miss so much. But I dont know what else to do. I dont know, I just dont know. I know that it doesnt feel right. It doesnt feel like I should do it. My heart feels like this is so wrong.
But my heart is stupid.
I hope this works. I hope this helps.
Good bye my love. Good bye my handsome gorgeous one. Goodbye all those memories. Good bye to the one I know the best. Good bye the one who knows me best. Goodbye dreams. Good bye hopes. Goodbye grumpy faces. Good bye "you". Goodbye "brighter days". Good bye quotes. Goodbye to it all.
Im sorry.
Goodbye