change
Last night, right as i got into bed my mom called. since i hadn't talked to her in a while and for those at home who check up on australia (pretty much just jenni and the rellies) could assume that shes been freaking out with all this cyclone business. She got many phone calls the other day from family and family friends to see if i was alright so i wanted to tell her, again, that i am fine. but anyway...we get to talking a bit and muffin jumps in front of the camera. i was all excited to see my kitty, and then my mom told me that he's starting to fail and that he doesnt even beg for food anymore. that was pretty upsetting. Then i got to thinking...i cant go home. I've changed, everyone at home has changed. I havent even talked to most of my friends, ive sent out a few emails, but i have no idea what is going on there. i am so out of the loop. everyone at home (except the fam...they haven't changed much) has moved on without me, and i have a completely new life here in oz. I just can't go home, nothing will be the same and i wont fit in anywhere. i dont regret leaving though, and i dont mean for this to sound like im sad or depressed...im actually better than ever. i've never had so much constant fun and adventure. everyday is something new, every weekend is a new place. life is amazing and exciting-quite literally the time of my life. it will be hard to go back to reality and normal life...if it will ever go back to normal...