You read and know you matter to me <3
I feel so fat. Need to jian fei. Haha. Not happening when all i have been doing is sit in front of my desk and a) watch videos b) internet c) study! My gosh so no life >.<
But tmr is the last day! Hoho. Last day of Julie-wanna be- Tricia and fat unhealthy pig Tricia XD Gonna do so freaking badly for common tests but whatever. Its only common tests.
I've been kinda cheery for some reason. Probably the distancing from my ole affected insecure self. I like learning this confidence again (: because you don't get hurt when you don't care.
I wanna go shopping! And next week is 4/1's gathering dinner <3 I can't wait to see them again. Honestly i never cared about such gatherings cos people don't matter don't matter to me. But recently i have learnt to cherish the people around me. I hung out with Gen before assembly today, joined the we-temporarily-fail-math club XD, hung out with Victoria before and after papers because we take almost the same subjects...and i realize actually i do miss the 4/1 girls (: Thats why i made an effort to agree to the meeting! SzeChing was kinda surprised and it heartens me to see her eagerness..
Also I never really cared about people who walks in and out of my life - but its different now. I never thought i'd care about people from my LWS class but i miss a few of them in a way? I miss just fooling around in class, even though thats just about it. And i made an effort to get to know Xiao Ran better. She's like a sister figure to me and its really awesome (: She's real sweet and nice and sometimes similar. Sometimes i see myself in her thoughts...perhaps thats why i find it easy to approach her.
And people like Alvin, Soon and MLYJ, you guys are friends whom i really care about. Not because Alvin gives us free entries to Kallang :p but also cos he is an elder brother figure. Though he seems like he is from a different world from us, i believe real friendship surpasses all superficiality. I am friends with whom i feel are genuinely nice and do not piss me off all the time. And Soon because of his rantings of music and songs and instruments. Its kinda cool because he accepts whatever trash i feed him :p whether or not he likes it. ahahahaha. *BROKEN ROSE!!* Lastly, though MLYJ has already walked out of my life, i remember how we used to be able to click. Was kinda mean to him i guess but. It doesn't mean he didn't matter.
And most importantly, honey <3 Sometimes i just want to stab him to pieces and eat him up but he has changed a lot for me. He became more sensitive and self-sacrificing? Though sometimes i feel we're only about "habit" and being used to having each other around, i think its not exactly a bad thing. At least i know when i need you, you will be there for me ^^ He makes me laugh so <333 love!!
Sarah my favouritest girl in the whole wide world who is just too awesome. Met up quite a lot during the holidays and i like it. It feels so familiar once again. I can't wait to go shopping (yay!) and playing and cloud-bathing and bikini shopping and island exploring and camwhoring with this girl!! My best friend forever and ever and ever amen (:
I miss going to KBox. Let's go Sarakpok! Bring Gen along because she hasn't been there before :o