Tricia is pwned T__T
Today's a real bad day. I try to believe God has a plan but wth is it? Anyway. So i finally met Vicente to pass him his super delayed present (: I wanted to study while i wait for Qiang to end his tennis but his tennis did not happen, so i had to pack up and walk all the way to the bus stop to meet him - but he's not there. Bah. I was quite annoyed because firstly i just settled down and secondly my plan to chill at starbucks was thwarted and thirdly its just not very exciting to imagine a whiny unappreciative and not very happy him. But i guess he has all the right in the world to be angry at the weather...i would too i guess. So after much disagreement and much discontent, i went to meet him still. Since i was supposed to play "good girlfriend" aka "miss nice" i will put up with it till the very end (: it has been a pretty nice role to play except sometimes "miss princess" gets in the way and wants everything done her way. Okay so today was Miss Nice 1:0 Miss Princess.
So he got on 169 and we went to his place for him to drop his stuff - which he did not cos Miss Nice agreed to play tennis with him. Hmm. Bad choice because i had and have such a huge problem with balls in general ever since i was hit by that darn soccerball right on the head in Pri 2. It was so bad i didn't even have to wait a second before tears poured out and i fell to the floor. From then on i became ballaphobic (or whatever you call it). So i knew i was being too ambitious and brave (and way too nice) when i agreed to playing tennis. I haven't even tried it in my life!!
So we went to OCC to have dinner (probably the best part of my whole of today) and headed to play pool. Pool is okay because the balls don't fly they just roll around happily. Yes. That i don't mind. Then it was doom's time >.< I could hit no balls and i know its not the correct method but really who gives when it actually goes across the effing net, like finally! I could not swing with one arm so i needed to use the strength of both arms. It was hell. Never a moment did i enjoy the game - it was too stressful trying to gauge the ball so i could a) attempt to hit it back b) attempt to even hit it c) reach it and d) protect myself from the ball. My self defence mechanism usually overfunctions in situations like these and thus its always d. I am just too too afraid of balls. Anyway i guess it started out fun because it was something new and i was actually not very worn out but slowly my determination wore off and my arm was aching like nuts. That took the fun factor out of tennis. It requires so much strength only buffaloes can play it. I admit im a weak female if you want to put it that way. I prefer graceful sports like figure skating where you don't run around catching balls like looneys.
I guess at the end of the day i am a sore loser and i admit it. I don't like sports i am not good at. But its his sport - his favourite one i guess. So cos i am supposed to play Miss Nice, i will try to be better at it. Overcome the fear and pump my determination to the max. I'll try to be good at both skating and tennis - i try. Haha. Now i can laugh - i just couldn't just now when i was so crushed and defeated :( I need a coach :) someone really patient with a really really BIG heart who can really guide my arms (which don't go with my brains or eyes or legs) and teach me like a kid XD I need so much encouragement its unimagineable. Double bah. But no he is not not nice to me and he was rather encouraging.
So feeling dejected and super like some idiot, i took the shuttle bus back to NP with him. He didn't send me home so he took bus 169 home whilst tortured demented Tricia took the train home. It was so tough trying to carry everything on the left side while trying to balance out the weight with my right side. I sound like i am soliciting for charity XD But nah, its just a very genuine and frank expression of my thoughts and experience. Sigh.
Tomorrow will be better (^.^)v
Because i am going wake up early to do some work, then go for tuition like a good student, then study some more at NLB and maybe meet panda and kiwi for break and then meet Qiang for MORE GRUELING TENNIS SESSION at night. Think i'll relax a bit by swimming tomorrow and hmm oh i need to submit my skating form soon. Yep.
Tomorrow MUST be better (".)v