Isn't the love of a hero - And that's why I fear it won't do
What am I doing? I'm insane. Ok, well that was a given, but I'm slipping into even more insane. I'm actually getting attatched to this town and this life and going on dates. Yes one date was more of the opening day of hunting season on my ass. And thank you for the 35 stitches I got out of that little picnic in the woods. I keep this up I'm going to look like Frankenstein's monster by the time I hit 30.
Well assuming I hit 30.
Maybe that's why I'm having all these fucking nightmares. I can't sleep a whole night without waking up screaming about India. I hate this, there's the sane part of me that says 'hi you can't go through life without making connections' and I want to smack it. Problem is I like people. I have always been mr smart ass with the group of friends and after getting to know a few of the people here and talk to them more than once I realize how much I miss it.
But then there's that whole lets not get attached to people and watch them get eaten by monsters because I really will snap and go batshit crazy on people aspect.
But I want that second date, I want to take Tatiana to the clubs of LA and be just a regular person who's not thinking about where to look for the monsters next.
But I don't want to give that up either. Every monster I kill is one parent that won't have to hear from a cop that their little kid is dead, every one is a lover that won't be standing by a grave watching half of their life be buried.
Once I get some sleep maybe this whole thing will make more sense. I hope she calls me soon, maybe contact with a voice that's not mine will make more sense.
Well assuming I hit 30.
Maybe that's why I'm having all these fucking nightmares. I can't sleep a whole night without waking up screaming about India. I hate this, there's the sane part of me that says 'hi you can't go through life without making connections' and I want to smack it. Problem is I like people. I have always been mr smart ass with the group of friends and after getting to know a few of the people here and talk to them more than once I realize how much I miss it.
But then there's that whole lets not get attached to people and watch them get eaten by monsters because I really will snap and go batshit crazy on people aspect.
But I want that second date, I want to take Tatiana to the clubs of LA and be just a regular person who's not thinking about where to look for the monsters next.
But I don't want to give that up either. Every monster I kill is one parent that won't have to hear from a cop that their little kid is dead, every one is a lover that won't be standing by a grave watching half of their life be buried.
Once I get some sleep maybe this whole thing will make more sense. I hope she calls me soon, maybe contact with a voice that's not mine will make more sense.